Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Yup so now i'm at yan shan's house blogging after taking a cool shower. Whee!! Whoever heard of people going home for showers during camps!!! But that's wad we just did thanks to the modern invention and rich people that make the use of such modern technology possible with the attainment of a license. Cars man!! I can't wait to get my own license. It is going to take some time since i have not even applied for my PDL. I'm just really lazy and also quite bogged down by all the things that has been happening.
Thailand Bangkok would be a great time for me to really relax, take a backseat and just let my mind wander. It has been a long time since I had such luxury. Usually short periods of time when i'm really relaxed or happy. Being in your arms-that counts don't it? haha!! told u i love to be hugged. By the right people too! =)
Today was quite an interesting day.. interesting in the sense that i didn't know the whole purpose of us being around the whole entire day. Well wad did i do. Run around having my own fun that's all i know. Using the com, playing with jelly, going out to buy lunch, going to ntuc to shop for own food stuff... You should have totally seen our selection of groceries!! Its like preparation for a long night of movies. I hope that's wad's going to happen tonight and not all the dota and lan games. I would be so damn lost!!! Yan shan's my companion throughout so far and i've been enjoying her company of course. =) Its just too bad that the rest are not able to join us if not it would so totally feel like a private camp. SO FUN!! And rickson, you so totally don't know what you are missing out on. You were supposed to come!!! Cheat our feelings!!!! HMPH~
Hope tml would be a better day! Heard we are going over to help out in another camp cause they are shorthanded. The prospect of this mid-camp switch sounds good. We get to go about Singapore and have fun. I am so gonna explore Holland V for future outings maybe. =) can't wait at all. We are going to have loads of fun tml!!!
Thailand Bangkok would be a great time for me to really relax, take a backseat and just let my mind wander. It has been a long time since I had such luxury. Usually short periods of time when i'm really relaxed or happy. Being in your arms-that counts don't it? haha!! told u i love to be hugged. By the right people too! =)
Today was quite an interesting day.. interesting in the sense that i didn't know the whole purpose of us being around the whole entire day. Well wad did i do. Run around having my own fun that's all i know. Using the com, playing with jelly, going out to buy lunch, going to ntuc to shop for own food stuff... You should have totally seen our selection of groceries!! Its like preparation for a long night of movies. I hope that's wad's going to happen tonight and not all the dota and lan games. I would be so damn lost!!! Yan shan's my companion throughout so far and i've been enjoying her company of course. =) Its just too bad that the rest are not able to join us if not it would so totally feel like a private camp. SO FUN!! And rickson, you so totally don't know what you are missing out on. You were supposed to come!!! Cheat our feelings!!!! HMPH~
Hope tml would be a better day! Heard we are going over to help out in another camp cause they are shorthanded. The prospect of this mid-camp switch sounds good. We get to go about Singapore and have fun. I am so gonna explore Holland V for future outings maybe. =) can't wait at all. We are going to have loads of fun tml!!!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
"Can't you just get out and make way?" (irritated)
"Can't you just move out earlier?" (picking a fight)
The rude exchange of opinions in the mrt earlier. Who's right? No comments from me.
Hmm.. watched "Made of Honour" today with lisabelle, josephine and shukit today. Haha its us 4 again. Were joking that shukit is forever stuck with this same bevy of girls. =) The movie was great!! Normal chick flick cliche storyline with expected ending but it was such a feel-good movie I don't mind it one bit. Only thing was wishing that such a sweet thing would happen in real life as well. So many a time we go about our lives looking for that special someone but we forget to look around at the people already beside us. A thought a thought.
AND.... Went for my first experience at sakae sushi buffet!! Left the place feeling like i'm about to explode... seriously heed the advice to fill your tummy till its about 80% full or walk around feeling like a panda. Heh the kungfu panda scene just jumped into my mind therefore that description. xp
Quite a happy day today! =) back to tms tml.
"Can't you just move out earlier?" (picking a fight)
The rude exchange of opinions in the mrt earlier. Who's right? No comments from me.
Hmm.. watched "Made of Honour" today with lisabelle, josephine and shukit today. Haha its us 4 again. Were joking that shukit is forever stuck with this same bevy of girls. =) The movie was great!! Normal chick flick cliche storyline with expected ending but it was such a feel-good movie I don't mind it one bit. Only thing was wishing that such a sweet thing would happen in real life as well. So many a time we go about our lives looking for that special someone but we forget to look around at the people already beside us. A thought a thought.
AND.... Went for my first experience at sakae sushi buffet!! Left the place feeling like i'm about to explode... seriously heed the advice to fill your tummy till its about 80% full or walk around feeling like a panda. Heh the kungfu panda scene just jumped into my mind therefore that description. xp
Quite a happy day today! =) back to tms tml.
Monday, May 26, 2008
So many things i want to say and yet words are so inadequate. I don't have the gift of writing as she has. Read her blog and realised that she portrayed that feeling so well. The kind of helplessness i felt. The frustrations i feel. The insignificance i suffer.
...I just wish you would share more of your life with me. I wish you would take more initiative. I wish i'm not the one who fell in love with you first. How i wish i know what you are thinking. What your future holds, what role i play in your life. So many unanswered questions and yet i hold on. Not because of stupidity as i would like to claim and disregard but because of something else that i feel only when i'm with you.
I just miss you. Can't wait for next next week when i'll probably meet you again. Once a week. Its precious time. For an ns guy and a girl.
Don't read too much into this post.
...I just wish you would share more of your life with me. I wish you would take more initiative. I wish i'm not the one who fell in love with you first. How i wish i know what you are thinking. What your future holds, what role i play in your life. So many unanswered questions and yet i hold on. Not because of stupidity as i would like to claim and disregard but because of something else that i feel only when i'm with you.
I just miss you. Can't wait for next next week when i'll probably meet you again. Once a week. Its precious time. For an ns guy and a girl.
Don't read too much into this post.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Yesterday was my last day and so, as of now, i'm officially unemployed!!!!
No more money coming in!!! Okie technically speaking i will still be getting one more pay check, but then again how much money can that be? Just how am i supposed to find a job that pays as well not forgetting the company of such great friends around? Like my darling reliefy teachers! They are the ones i'll be missing, also not forgetting my lunch gang at Lawrence's.
Photos are up on facebook (!!!) and i have to say that i look terrible and horrible in some shots. Just don't ask me what's up with my facial expression. I have no idea how to answer that question. HAHAA! Yup go on and laugh.
Went out with the reliefs ytd. yanshan, esther, rickson and me! Watched "Accuracy of death" which was a chim show. Voices were in jap so the whole cinema was reading the subtitles. haha. It was obvious because people were laughing even before the character started talking! Cute actor with the naivety of a child! I thought the story was quite well mashed together going in one circle. =) Sweet though nearing the end rickson fell asleep beside me. blah.
Bored. Weekend. Bye.
No more money coming in!!! Okie technically speaking i will still be getting one more pay check, but then again how much money can that be? Just how am i supposed to find a job that pays as well not forgetting the company of such great friends around? Like my darling reliefy teachers! They are the ones i'll be missing, also not forgetting my lunch gang at Lawrence's.
Photos are up on facebook (!!!) and i have to say that i look terrible and horrible in some shots. Just don't ask me what's up with my facial expression. I have no idea how to answer that question. HAHAA! Yup go on and laugh.
Went out with the reliefs ytd. yanshan, esther, rickson and me! Watched "Accuracy of death" which was a chim show. Voices were in jap so the whole cinema was reading the subtitles. haha. It was obvious because people were laughing even before the character started talking! Cute actor with the naivety of a child! I thought the story was quite well mashed together going in one circle. =) Sweet though nearing the end rickson fell asleep beside me. blah.
Bored. Weekend. Bye.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
I AM SUPER RELIEVED AND HAPPY!!!!!
All because I received acceptance from SMU!!!!
Finally I don't have to worry that I would have to study something that I totally have no interest in for 4 freaking years!!!
Whee!!!
Yes look at the number of exclamation marks. I am really that happy.
It is not that easy waiting for that acceptance.
I have been antsy for such a long time now and having that worried thought inside of me...
FINALLY it is being released...
Its really like clear skies after monsoon season!
I will still go through with my appeal though. That's for sure. =)
All because I received acceptance from SMU!!!!
Finally I don't have to worry that I would have to study something that I totally have no interest in for 4 freaking years!!!
Whee!!!
Yes look at the number of exclamation marks. I am really that happy.
It is not that easy waiting for that acceptance.
I have been antsy for such a long time now and having that worried thought inside of me...
FINALLY it is being released...
Its really like clear skies after monsoon season!
I will still go through with my appeal though. That's for sure. =)
USP interview was me at my most smoky... HAHA..
They killed me.
It was an atrocious interview.
Well done girl.
Took a bus on the wrong side of the road.
Thankfully, it was a loop service and i found out where Holland V. is!!
But hopelessly, the driver seem to like driving in gear 1 which made the whole journey almost painful.
BLAH.
And i want your company.
pouts.
haha
They killed me.
It was an atrocious interview.
Well done girl.
Took a bus on the wrong side of the road.
Thankfully, it was a loop service and i found out where Holland V. is!!
But hopelessly, the driver seem to like driving in gear 1 which made the whole journey almost painful.
BLAH.
And i want your company.
pouts.
haha
Tml shall be my last day officially in Temasek. Gosh how time flies. 5 months stint in TMS is over just like that. I so enjoyed myself. It is going to be hard leaving, the people, the sense of belonging and the memories.
It shall be photographs day tml. trying to capture on film or rather on bytes, the laughter, the fun, the hurt, the tears. Good to know that i have left footprints in some of their hearts and yes, for sure they have left footprints in mine...
My journey continues from here onwards...
It shall be photographs day tml. trying to capture on film or rather on bytes, the laughter, the fun, the hurt, the tears. Good to know that i have left footprints in some of their hearts and yes, for sure they have left footprints in mine...
My journey continues from here onwards...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
A few days ago, it was Mother's day...
I really love my mom.
Ytd she wrote me a letter. I only read it today because since I got home late ytd, I only saw it lying on my table after work today.
Such a touching letter. Using such a medium because, well, she knows how bad tempered I am when i'm being bugged about uni because I am so very confused about the path i want to take, she decided to use a less personal method. Told me that she'll support me no matter what i chose to do and I took comfort in it. I really saw how much she cared and love me from those simple words written in chinese. Even with the spelling mistakes when she attempted to write an english phrase, the letter moved me beyond words. Tears just began trickling down my cheek as I read the letter and before long I was hugging my bolster, thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such supportive parents who are standing by my side and listening to my wishes not to bug me about uni because I will just flare up trying to explain my dilemma to them due to their limited knowledge on how the uni system works. I don't like leaving them in the dark but then again I need to think real hard on my choice because it matters so damn much to me and I want the best I can get for myself.
There is just so much frustration in me as I hear more and more people telling me about uni. Not so much so as not getting any acceptance letters but the bloody fact that I was denied my choice which was freaking reasonable given the grades I had gotten. It just ain't fair. And don't be such a pain-in-the-ass and tell me that "the world ain't fair" because that's such a cliche and overrated comment that just doesn't apply in this case. TOTALLY. If you had wanted to say that, you totally don't know my situation and therefore you lose the right to judge and make stupid passing remarks. Yes and I know i'm being not very Joyce right now but i'm damn pissed. No matter what, some people should just shut their gap and just disappear off the face of the Earth.
Yes i'm a pissed girl. The whole "I am angry at the whole world" thing. I hope it passes real soon. I want myself back.
I really love my mom.
Ytd she wrote me a letter. I only read it today because since I got home late ytd, I only saw it lying on my table after work today.
Such a touching letter. Using such a medium because, well, she knows how bad tempered I am when i'm being bugged about uni because I am so very confused about the path i want to take, she decided to use a less personal method. Told me that she'll support me no matter what i chose to do and I took comfort in it. I really saw how much she cared and love me from those simple words written in chinese. Even with the spelling mistakes when she attempted to write an english phrase, the letter moved me beyond words. Tears just began trickling down my cheek as I read the letter and before long I was hugging my bolster, thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such supportive parents who are standing by my side and listening to my wishes not to bug me about uni because I will just flare up trying to explain my dilemma to them due to their limited knowledge on how the uni system works. I don't like leaving them in the dark but then again I need to think real hard on my choice because it matters so damn much to me and I want the best I can get for myself.
There is just so much frustration in me as I hear more and more people telling me about uni. Not so much so as not getting any acceptance letters but the bloody fact that I was denied my choice which was freaking reasonable given the grades I had gotten. It just ain't fair. And don't be such a pain-in-the-ass and tell me that "the world ain't fair" because that's such a cliche and overrated comment that just doesn't apply in this case. TOTALLY. If you had wanted to say that, you totally don't know my situation and therefore you lose the right to judge and make stupid passing remarks. Yes and I know i'm being not very Joyce right now but i'm damn pissed. No matter what, some people should just shut their gap and just disappear off the face of the Earth.
Yes i'm a pissed girl. The whole "I am angry at the whole world" thing. I hope it passes real soon. I want myself back.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Alrights i'm back like i said i would be. Lets try to have a proper post this time.
The past few weeks have been quite an emotional roller coaster ride for me. Since the last time i really blogged, it was about pahang wasn't it? I must have left some of my common sense there then haha i'm becoming so idiotic nowadays. Life can be so easily divided into school life, home life, personal stresses, friends. Then again they overlap too. Happiness is not far from everything if you only take the time to find that silver lining.
School life has been really fun with all the nonsense RTs enduring the long days with me. Lunching with them and talking cock is the best!! Haha this bunch of friends i'm glad to have, can't imagine how disgusting my life would be like in school without them. Oh not forgetting anna and clara too. They certainly do help spice up life. Oh wells in case some of you still do not know, I am now a lower sec science teacher. Yeah go on and laugh. Point at me and go "You?!?! A science teacher?!? You must be so kidding me..." But yup due to certain circumstances that i shall not say because of its sensitivity (you can ask me and i'll tell you though) and also cause i really do not know who reads my blog. In case this space has been invaded my students, certain things and happenings should be censored. Alrights. Teaching lower sec is like TORTURE. Face it, look within yourself and think of all the things that you did when you were younger. Did your teacher have a field day yelling? It ain't that fun. I lost my voice a couple of times. Talk to me right after a certain class and for sure i would have a rasping voice that i can treat you to. Haha.. Once it was so bad that the doctor actually had to prescript me some anti-inflammation medicine that was so strong i had to take gastric pills along with it to prevent the medicine from causing me much discomfort. It was freaking scary. Anyways, i do miss teaching geog. It is still my love, science just can't compare. And i do miss teaching the upper sec too. Especially a few chosen classes. Oh wells.
The last week was exam period. Been drafted down for invigilating duty. ARGH! Do you know that it is freaking boring to sit there and stare at people doing the paper i always have this urge to fall asleep. Seriously. You are not allowed to do anything like reading or marking so you are expected to walk around or sit there watching out for cheaterbugs. Blahhhh. I keep daydreaming till someone raise their hand. heh. But it is too boring i can't help it. Yet sometimes it can be fascinating as well. You see how different people cope with the stress of doing the exam in timed conditions. Some just chiong all the way doing with confidence and yet when i examine their script, they are just scribbling something irrelevant. Some have this perpetual worried look on their faces. Disgusting habits are also exposed. Urgh i rather not talk about this one. Too disgusted.. It becomes less boring when they are doing papers of subjects that i'm familiar with because i will try to do the paper too. Damn cool. Stimulates my mind as well then go around to see if they can answer the questions too, or double check my answer. HAHA!! With exams, comes the marking as well. URGHH. In fact i'm now sitting here with a whole thick stack of science papers to mark. Its so not fun to shift through answers trying to squeeze marks out for the students. Ever had any teacher barking at you saying something like "You were so close to the answer and yet you missed out on all the key marking points, therefore i can't award you the marks you should have gotten!!"?? I know i have had such experience. Now i'm taking on the role of the teacher, wanting to strangle all the students!!! Its frustrating i should say. Of course, the answers that the students give can be quite ridiculous as well. haha. The things that you write under exam conditions are just... lol. And some people, just don't read instructions properly. How nice.
I'm going to miss tms when i have to leave... =( okie lets not talk about this until it is inevitable.
So that's about it for school life. What's next? Aiya i know this period of time everyone is concerned with uni acceptance letters. Yup I got one letter. But due to me being stupid and not filling up the discretionary component, i did not get posted to where i want. Therefore i'm appealing. Pray for me won't you. I should think i have a pretty good chance since people with my score have entered the faculty receiving their acceptance letters. I'm quite frustrated you see. Cause some of the accepted people actually have same or worse grades than me but for reasons unknown, i am passed along to the rest of my choices. URGH. You won't believe my disappointment that day i opened the thick fat brown envelope. Thank goodness for dear friends for being there for me to hear me cry out. But all this has just made me more determined to appeal. BLAH.
My aunt's in hospital again. And i'm worried. =( I hope she pulls through again this time and that she can make a full recovery and never never slip into depression. Haiz. Just when all of us were going to celebrate, this news had to come. Yes i'm quite affected by it because she's really close to me. Almost like a second mother to me, taking time off for me and listening. An adult that i can trust my secrets with and to go for for advice. Fingers crossed.
So how am i faring?
I have passed my BTT driving and continuing on to do my FTT. Nope i have yet to get an instructor. Any recommendations?
My uni application... mentioned above is bugging me like nobody's business.
My love life.... its really complicated and i don't want to talk about it except that i really don't know what i'm waiting for anymore and that i should just run to the nearest supermarket or hardware store to get a frying pan and hit you on the head with it. I fell too deep and therefore i'm in deep trouble. URGHH. Uni applications ain't the only thing that is bugging me. crap.
Oh no. I need to go back to my marking.... almost time for me to leave. URGHHH. Till then. Loves. OH! And if i still owe anyone of you a day out, pls come and bug me. =) Becky for one and Oh PAM!! And YUNG just when are you coming back?!?!
The past few weeks have been quite an emotional roller coaster ride for me. Since the last time i really blogged, it was about pahang wasn't it? I must have left some of my common sense there then haha i'm becoming so idiotic nowadays. Life can be so easily divided into school life, home life, personal stresses, friends. Then again they overlap too. Happiness is not far from everything if you only take the time to find that silver lining.
School life has been really fun with all the nonsense RTs enduring the long days with me. Lunching with them and talking cock is the best!! Haha this bunch of friends i'm glad to have, can't imagine how disgusting my life would be like in school without them. Oh not forgetting anna and clara too. They certainly do help spice up life. Oh wells in case some of you still do not know, I am now a lower sec science teacher. Yeah go on and laugh. Point at me and go "You?!?! A science teacher?!? You must be so kidding me..." But yup due to certain circumstances that i shall not say because of its sensitivity (you can ask me and i'll tell you though) and also cause i really do not know who reads my blog. In case this space has been invaded my students, certain things and happenings should be censored. Alrights. Teaching lower sec is like TORTURE. Face it, look within yourself and think of all the things that you did when you were younger. Did your teacher have a field day yelling? It ain't that fun. I lost my voice a couple of times. Talk to me right after a certain class and for sure i would have a rasping voice that i can treat you to. Haha.. Once it was so bad that the doctor actually had to prescript me some anti-inflammation medicine that was so strong i had to take gastric pills along with it to prevent the medicine from causing me much discomfort. It was freaking scary. Anyways, i do miss teaching geog. It is still my love, science just can't compare. And i do miss teaching the upper sec too. Especially a few chosen classes. Oh wells.
The last week was exam period. Been drafted down for invigilating duty. ARGH! Do you know that it is freaking boring to sit there and stare at people doing the paper i always have this urge to fall asleep. Seriously. You are not allowed to do anything like reading or marking so you are expected to walk around or sit there watching out for cheaterbugs. Blahhhh. I keep daydreaming till someone raise their hand. heh. But it is too boring i can't help it. Yet sometimes it can be fascinating as well. You see how different people cope with the stress of doing the exam in timed conditions. Some just chiong all the way doing with confidence and yet when i examine their script, they are just scribbling something irrelevant. Some have this perpetual worried look on their faces. Disgusting habits are also exposed. Urgh i rather not talk about this one. Too disgusted.. It becomes less boring when they are doing papers of subjects that i'm familiar with because i will try to do the paper too. Damn cool. Stimulates my mind as well then go around to see if they can answer the questions too, or double check my answer. HAHA!! With exams, comes the marking as well. URGHH. In fact i'm now sitting here with a whole thick stack of science papers to mark. Its so not fun to shift through answers trying to squeeze marks out for the students. Ever had any teacher barking at you saying something like "You were so close to the answer and yet you missed out on all the key marking points, therefore i can't award you the marks you should have gotten!!"?? I know i have had such experience. Now i'm taking on the role of the teacher, wanting to strangle all the students!!! Its frustrating i should say. Of course, the answers that the students give can be quite ridiculous as well. haha. The things that you write under exam conditions are just... lol. And some people, just don't read instructions properly. How nice.
I'm going to miss tms when i have to leave... =( okie lets not talk about this until it is inevitable.
So that's about it for school life. What's next? Aiya i know this period of time everyone is concerned with uni acceptance letters. Yup I got one letter. But due to me being stupid and not filling up the discretionary component, i did not get posted to where i want. Therefore i'm appealing. Pray for me won't you. I should think i have a pretty good chance since people with my score have entered the faculty receiving their acceptance letters. I'm quite frustrated you see. Cause some of the accepted people actually have same or worse grades than me but for reasons unknown, i am passed along to the rest of my choices. URGH. You won't believe my disappointment that day i opened the thick fat brown envelope. Thank goodness for dear friends for being there for me to hear me cry out. But all this has just made me more determined to appeal. BLAH.
My aunt's in hospital again. And i'm worried. =( I hope she pulls through again this time and that she can make a full recovery and never never slip into depression. Haiz. Just when all of us were going to celebrate, this news had to come. Yes i'm quite affected by it because she's really close to me. Almost like a second mother to me, taking time off for me and listening. An adult that i can trust my secrets with and to go for for advice. Fingers crossed.
So how am i faring?
I have passed my BTT driving and continuing on to do my FTT. Nope i have yet to get an instructor. Any recommendations?
My uni application... mentioned above is bugging me like nobody's business.
My love life.... its really complicated and i don't want to talk about it except that i really don't know what i'm waiting for anymore and that i should just run to the nearest supermarket or hardware store to get a frying pan and hit you on the head with it. I fell too deep and therefore i'm in deep trouble. URGHH. Uni applications ain't the only thing that is bugging me. crap.
Oh no. I need to go back to my marking.... almost time for me to leave. URGHHH. Till then. Loves. OH! And if i still owe anyone of you a day out, pls come and bug me. =) Becky for one and Oh PAM!! And YUNG just when are you coming back?!?!
Saturday, May 10, 2008
overdue overdue. i shall just make a short post here first to prevent my blog from really dying on me. I can't afford that to happen after up-keeping it for at least 3 years already!!
Been going on movie "spree" recently. Ironman, Nim's Island, Forbidden Kingdom, Speed Racer... All in 2 weeks. Yes my wallet is definitely getting thinner. haha. Okie i gtg. Expected at grandma's.
Again tonight(maybe).
I'm so freaking confused. and yet.... lets just wait and see. More another time.
Been going on movie "spree" recently. Ironman, Nim's Island, Forbidden Kingdom, Speed Racer... All in 2 weeks. Yes my wallet is definitely getting thinner. haha. Okie i gtg. Expected at grandma's.
Again tonight(maybe).
I'm so freaking confused. and yet.... lets just wait and see. More another time.
