Wednesday, May 14, 2008
A few days ago, it was Mother's day...
I really love my mom.
Ytd she wrote me a letter. I only read it today because since I got home late ytd, I only saw it lying on my table after work today.
Such a touching letter. Using such a medium because, well, she knows how bad tempered I am when i'm being bugged about uni because I am so very confused about the path i want to take, she decided to use a less personal method. Told me that she'll support me no matter what i chose to do and I took comfort in it. I really saw how much she cared and love me from those simple words written in chinese. Even with the spelling mistakes when she attempted to write an english phrase, the letter moved me beyond words. Tears just began trickling down my cheek as I read the letter and before long I was hugging my bolster, thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such supportive parents who are standing by my side and listening to my wishes not to bug me about uni because I will just flare up trying to explain my dilemma to them due to their limited knowledge on how the uni system works. I don't like leaving them in the dark but then again I need to think real hard on my choice because it matters so damn much to me and I want the best I can get for myself.
There is just so much frustration in me as I hear more and more people telling me about uni. Not so much so as not getting any acceptance letters but the bloody fact that I was denied my choice which was freaking reasonable given the grades I had gotten. It just ain't fair. And don't be such a pain-in-the-ass and tell me that "the world ain't fair" because that's such a cliche and overrated comment that just doesn't apply in this case. TOTALLY. If you had wanted to say that, you totally don't know my situation and therefore you lose the right to judge and make stupid passing remarks. Yes and I know i'm being not very Joyce right now but i'm damn pissed. No matter what, some people should just shut their gap and just disappear off the face of the Earth.
Yes i'm a pissed girl. The whole "I am angry at the whole world" thing. I hope it passes real soon. I want myself back.
I really love my mom.
Ytd she wrote me a letter. I only read it today because since I got home late ytd, I only saw it lying on my table after work today.
Such a touching letter. Using such a medium because, well, she knows how bad tempered I am when i'm being bugged about uni because I am so very confused about the path i want to take, she decided to use a less personal method. Told me that she'll support me no matter what i chose to do and I took comfort in it. I really saw how much she cared and love me from those simple words written in chinese. Even with the spelling mistakes when she attempted to write an english phrase, the letter moved me beyond words. Tears just began trickling down my cheek as I read the letter and before long I was hugging my bolster, thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such supportive parents who are standing by my side and listening to my wishes not to bug me about uni because I will just flare up trying to explain my dilemma to them due to their limited knowledge on how the uni system works. I don't like leaving them in the dark but then again I need to think real hard on my choice because it matters so damn much to me and I want the best I can get for myself.
There is just so much frustration in me as I hear more and more people telling me about uni. Not so much so as not getting any acceptance letters but the bloody fact that I was denied my choice which was freaking reasonable given the grades I had gotten. It just ain't fair. And don't be such a pain-in-the-ass and tell me that "the world ain't fair" because that's such a cliche and overrated comment that just doesn't apply in this case. TOTALLY. If you had wanted to say that, you totally don't know my situation and therefore you lose the right to judge and make stupid passing remarks. Yes and I know i'm being not very Joyce right now but i'm damn pissed. No matter what, some people should just shut their gap and just disappear off the face of the Earth.
Yes i'm a pissed girl. The whole "I am angry at the whole world" thing. I hope it passes real soon. I want myself back.
