Friday, May 22, 2009
I am supposed to be fast asleep.
Instead i'm slow awake.
-.-"
I have no patience. Not with people who come and push their opinions on me insisting that they are not arguing with me and yet tries to resolve the whole issue by saying "well in that case get ____ (higher authority) here so that i would not need to be here ARGUING with you". Talk about setting the trap and walking right into it. URGH. Just get away from me. My fuse is only this long.
Another 3 hrs to kill alone again. I think I will get so familiar with tanjong pagar I would be able to walk around it blindfolded. Where shall I go tml? Its like a mini expedition everytime.
thought: doing retail jobs screw up my body. sleep and meals. thankyouverymuch.
i'm hungry NOW. 1.12am.
Instead i'm slow awake.
-.-"
I have no patience. Not with people who come and push their opinions on me insisting that they are not arguing with me and yet tries to resolve the whole issue by saying "well in that case get ____ (higher authority) here so that i would not need to be here ARGUING with you". Talk about setting the trap and walking right into it. URGH. Just get away from me. My fuse is only this long.
Another 3 hrs to kill alone again. I think I will get so familiar with tanjong pagar I would be able to walk around it blindfolded. Where shall I go tml? Its like a mini expedition everytime.
thought: doing retail jobs screw up my body. sleep and meals. thankyouverymuch.
i'm hungry NOW. 1.12am.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Random craving.
I've got craving for dim sum. XIANGLE!!!!! But.... I think before I meet you in June I must go gorge myself once first. hahahaha. I absolutely love dim sum. Its a hidden liking that has surfaced and taken over me by full force recently.
Hilarious moment.
Anyway becky called me today with an emergency- "how to park a car 1101e" exclusion: no driving license and nil lessons, plus...the car is a manual one. faints. Think i spent about half an hour guiding her
"eh left leg step clutch, right leg step break, reverse gear hor... slowly slowly.."
"okie okie..."
"oh remember the handbreak!"
"huh what?"
"release the handbreak!! Press the button!!!"
"can't press!!!"
"One hand can't press??"
"ya.... cannot!!"
"too hard?? USE BOTH HANDS!"
"the clutch very hard to release la!!"
....
"okie now release the clutch by like 30-35 degrees."
"Huh? the car vibrating?? okie... now..............."
"the people across the road at the coffeeshop must be wondering what this kuku is doing parking the car for so so so long" HAHAHA...
First day at work.
Hmm quite the interesting la huh. Can't say i love the job but... nah can't complain, besides the fact that i have 3 hr lunch break ALONE. =( I can totally master the art of solitarity. cool. (doesn't help that the person I keep thinking of can't spare time for me. major BOO.)
But first day of work come with all the oddities. With weird things said to me... to belle... to jo.... it just didn't feel all that right. Also tiring.
It sure was cool though that the other person working at the same booth for another company turned out to be my jc squash mate. Seriously.. how much smaller can singapore get?! As we go through more and more years of education in singapore schools, the circle of friends just gets smaller and tighter. You think you are expanding your social circle by going out there to meet people... but actually you are just redefining your social circle by drawing more concrete 2nd/3rd/4th degree friendship lines. Its freaky... it also makes you more conscious of who you "bitch" about because you never know the "someone" that you vaguely mention and bitch about might be a close friend of someone within that "circle of trust" that you are right at the moment spilling your secrets out to.
I shudder to think of the consequences.
Alrighty. I'm off.
Tomorrow tomorrow, I love you tomorrow.
<3
-because love never fails, i still believe.-
I've got craving for dim sum. XIANGLE!!!!! But.... I think before I meet you in June I must go gorge myself once first. hahahaha. I absolutely love dim sum. Its a hidden liking that has surfaced and taken over me by full force recently.
Hilarious moment.
Anyway becky called me today with an emergency- "how to park a car 1101e" exclusion: no driving license and nil lessons, plus...the car is a manual one. faints. Think i spent about half an hour guiding her
"eh left leg step clutch, right leg step break, reverse gear hor... slowly slowly.."
"okie okie..."
"oh remember the handbreak!"
"huh what?"
"release the handbreak!! Press the button!!!"
"can't press!!!"
"One hand can't press??"
"ya.... cannot!!"
"too hard?? USE BOTH HANDS!"
"the clutch very hard to release la!!"
....
"okie now release the clutch by like 30-35 degrees."
"Huh? the car vibrating?? okie... now..............."
"the people across the road at the coffeeshop must be wondering what this kuku is doing parking the car for so so so long" HAHAHA...
First day at work.
Hmm quite the interesting la huh. Can't say i love the job but... nah can't complain, besides the fact that i have 3 hr lunch break ALONE. =( I can totally master the art of solitarity. cool. (doesn't help that the person I keep thinking of can't spare time for me. major BOO.)
But first day of work come with all the oddities. With weird things said to me... to belle... to jo.... it just didn't feel all that right. Also tiring.
It sure was cool though that the other person working at the same booth for another company turned out to be my jc squash mate. Seriously.. how much smaller can singapore get?! As we go through more and more years of education in singapore schools, the circle of friends just gets smaller and tighter. You think you are expanding your social circle by going out there to meet people... but actually you are just redefining your social circle by drawing more concrete 2nd/3rd/4th degree friendship lines. Its freaky... it also makes you more conscious of who you "bitch" about because you never know the "someone" that you vaguely mention and bitch about might be a close friend of someone within that "circle of trust" that you are right at the moment spilling your secrets out to.
I shudder to think of the consequences.
Alrighty. I'm off.
Tomorrow tomorrow, I love you tomorrow.
<3
-because love never fails, i still believe.-
undoing what i did has no effect. probably because you are already too caught up in other things/people to look and realise.
i'm upset because... to you i've become inconsequential. its really saddening.
I would be lying if i said i feel the same way too.
i'm upset because... to you i've become inconsequential. its really saddening.
I would be lying if i said i feel the same way too.
Monday, May 18, 2009
I finally went for a play!!!! YAY!!
"Much ado about nothing" indeed. =)
Thank you girls+guy for making it happen. I've been wanting to watch it ever since I saw it on sistic website in feb!
The set was not really fantastic and dramatic but it serves the purpose of the play well. The starting was kinda confusing because of the names. The guy's name sounded like the girl's name and all of us got so muddle-headed till it became clear. The first part of the play was more lively and dramatic with much scenes that provoked laughing. The second part after the interval was more draggy and dull. So in comparison, I enjoyed the first half more. The way they spoke in old english and poke fun and sarcasm at each other was a real thrill. I enjoyed deciphering what they were saying and laughing at their hidden jokes and punchlines.
Adrian Pang sure was entertaining. He can sing real well too!! And that mouth clapping thing that he did made us all laugh. He's really cool and a "jester" in the making indeed. =) I love his character and that of Beatrice. She is such a quirky gal (not girl nor lady) and is such a spirited character that is hard not to like. I guess her cheerful demeanor left me hoping for more. I do want to be like her. Go around with no care in the world and yet succumb when it comes to things that matter.
"Much ado about nothing". Apt. I now know why the play is named as such. And i now know the meaning of that phrase.
I want to go again next year!!!! =)
"Much ado about nothing" indeed. =)
Thank you girls+guy for making it happen. I've been wanting to watch it ever since I saw it on sistic website in feb!
The set was not really fantastic and dramatic but it serves the purpose of the play well. The starting was kinda confusing because of the names. The guy's name sounded like the girl's name and all of us got so muddle-headed till it became clear. The first part of the play was more lively and dramatic with much scenes that provoked laughing. The second part after the interval was more draggy and dull. So in comparison, I enjoyed the first half more. The way they spoke in old english and poke fun and sarcasm at each other was a real thrill. I enjoyed deciphering what they were saying and laughing at their hidden jokes and punchlines.
Adrian Pang sure was entertaining. He can sing real well too!! And that mouth clapping thing that he did made us all laugh. He's really cool and a "jester" in the making indeed. =) I love his character and that of Beatrice. She is such a quirky gal (not girl nor lady) and is such a spirited character that is hard not to like. I guess her cheerful demeanor left me hoping for more. I do want to be like her. Go around with no care in the world and yet succumb when it comes to things that matter.
"Much ado about nothing". Apt. I now know why the play is named as such. And i now know the meaning of that phrase.
I want to go again next year!!!! =)
Sunday, May 17, 2009
i took a time check just now and realised its only been a week... and it felt like eternity. =( Still the thing that bothers me, even now that you don't exist.
Friday, May 15, 2009
I (will) see you guys SO many times and yet i'm not complaining.
Not ONE bit.
I love you guys.
5 times in a week. <3
Not ONE bit.
I love you guys.
5 times in a week. <3
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Insomnia came to find me again today. He told me how much he love me and needed my company. In a weird way I welcome him. For then, I would forget everything else and concentrate on figuring out why he came to find me.
Its not that hard. He just wants to take the place of another who resides in his permanent place. And tonight, he stays for a long long time...
And I want him gone.
Its not that hard. He just wants to take the place of another who resides in his permanent place. And tonight, he stays for a long long time...
And I want him gone.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I climbed out of one shit-hole only to fall face-first into another.
Omg.
Its so retarded.
And the worst thing is,
I think I'm responsible for digging these shit-holes.
With experience,
I get so good at digging,
The holes are getting deeper.
Ironic shit.
Omg.
Its so retarded.
And the worst thing is,
I think I'm responsible for digging these shit-holes.
With experience,
I get so good at digging,
The holes are getting deeper.
Ironic shit.
Its a love-hate relationship with the nights.
They leave me thinking in the quiet solace. My mind wanders beyond imaginable boundaries. And yet its also the time where i seek company... Even a name on the screen can make me feel less lonely.
Tell me. If I ever have the fortune to meet... someone who would change my life and turn it all around, would I let go and go say hello?
Like Henry and Clare. Its incredible.
They leave me thinking in the quiet solace. My mind wanders beyond imaginable boundaries. And yet its also the time where i seek company... Even a name on the screen can make me feel less lonely.
Tell me. If I ever have the fortune to meet... someone who would change my life and turn it all around, would I let go and go say hello?
Like Henry and Clare. Its incredible.
my new hair."How would you like to cut your hair?"
"I'm open to suggestions. Cut it anyway you like."
I'm brave.
Sometimes.
That was one of those times.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I wonder who still reads all these things that i type.
Sunsets are an amazing sight. They are the majestic closure to the end of a day. Maybe it is not wrong to say then that every sunset is reflective of someone's day. Each sunset dedicated to a special person in this world...
I found a place to watch sunsets. Marina barrage. The view is just fantastic! Its the ideal place to take those postcard-like photos. s501 was fitting company =). i may be biased but us girls are the perfect beautiful subjects to photograph.
I enjoyed frolicking (haha) around in the grass, trying to fly a kite, taking truckload of photos of the sunset, scenery and of my beautiful ladies. I just missed someone-YINGXIENG. (and of course all the others who didn't turn up!!!)
Anyone of you reading interested in going down to catch the sunset too? Take the train down to Marina Bay and board the shuttle bus. Do bring a picnic mat!
-duh-
In the subsequent talk in starbucks with loraine after saying our goodbyes to the rest of the class, things she said started me thinking...
Everyday may be a challenge. Especially life in uni. Everybody complains that JC was tiring but nobody warned you that uni is much worse. Not the workload but the emotional rollarcoaster that you are made to ride, the need to make superficial friends if any at all, the need to toggle between school work which is still demanding and personal time which keeps you sane. I prefer JC years because somehow in uni, you are forced to grow up-too fast. Life really was much simpler then.
Also, reality check is also very cruel. In uni your heart-wrenching sob story may only be one drop of tear worth in the vast ocean.
In 3 months, some of you might get to experience that feeling which i liken to cultural shock. 4 stages.
Euphoria- everything in uni takes on a positive light, the new environment, the possibility of new friends or more than friends, the notion that you are beginning a whole new journey.
Culture shock- tests? exams? papers to write? 1500 words and with no concept in mind? Oh welcome to my life.
Acculturation- slowly adapting, changing to accommodate the shift in academic vigor, personal life and increase in hi-bye friends... we all change as our environment necessitate for survival, just to what extent.
Stable stage- this depends wholly on you. You can adapt real well and embrace uni life. You can be neutral about it (hardly so.). Or you can forever think that uni life sucks.
Where would you stand?
(and i'm proud of myself that not everything i mugged for went down the toilet bowl. haha)
And i'm gone. and i will disappear.
byeee.
Sunsets are an amazing sight. They are the majestic closure to the end of a day. Maybe it is not wrong to say then that every sunset is reflective of someone's day. Each sunset dedicated to a special person in this world...
I found a place to watch sunsets. Marina barrage. The view is just fantastic! Its the ideal place to take those postcard-like photos. s501 was fitting company =). i may be biased but us girls are the perfect beautiful subjects to photograph.
I enjoyed frolicking (haha) around in the grass, trying to fly a kite, taking truckload of photos of the sunset, scenery and of my beautiful ladies. I just missed someone-YINGXIENG. (and of course all the others who didn't turn up!!!)
Anyone of you reading interested in going down to catch the sunset too? Take the train down to Marina Bay and board the shuttle bus. Do bring a picnic mat!
-duh-
In the subsequent talk in starbucks with loraine after saying our goodbyes to the rest of the class, things she said started me thinking...
Everyday may be a challenge. Especially life in uni. Everybody complains that JC was tiring but nobody warned you that uni is much worse. Not the workload but the emotional rollarcoaster that you are made to ride, the need to make superficial friends if any at all, the need to toggle between school work which is still demanding and personal time which keeps you sane. I prefer JC years because somehow in uni, you are forced to grow up-too fast. Life really was much simpler then.
Also, reality check is also very cruel. In uni your heart-wrenching sob story may only be one drop of tear worth in the vast ocean.
In 3 months, some of you might get to experience that feeling which i liken to cultural shock. 4 stages.
Euphoria- everything in uni takes on a positive light, the new environment, the possibility of new friends or more than friends, the notion that you are beginning a whole new journey.
Culture shock- tests? exams? papers to write? 1500 words and with no concept in mind? Oh welcome to my life.
Acculturation- slowly adapting, changing to accommodate the shift in academic vigor, personal life and increase in hi-bye friends... we all change as our environment necessitate for survival, just to what extent.
Stable stage- this depends wholly on you. You can adapt real well and embrace uni life. You can be neutral about it (hardly so.). Or you can forever think that uni life sucks.
Where would you stand?
(and i'm proud of myself that not everything i mugged for went down the toilet bowl. haha)
And i'm gone. and i will disappear.
byeee.
Saturday, May 09, 2009
I have some time on my hands now before i have to prepare to leave house again for another happening night out somewhere. HAHA. =)
The last few days following the end of my papers were exciting and fulfilling. I managed to meet my gang and cut my hair and see some people i've been meaning to see since long long ago. So meaningful and happy.
I can't believe that the end of exams on the 6th of May also marks the end of year1 in uni. Its so surreal that my first year has already passed. It only seems like yesterday when I got my appeal letter and acceptance. Time really flies. So many things have come to past too. Somehow i'm looking forward to next sem, to another ball game altogether.
Nah i'm not about to get all melancholy right now. I don't have the time to type out all of that emotions. I shall make this a short, happy post. =)
I've cut my hair. Year1's over and results would be out on the 29th. Look forward to it or wish that that day never arrives? Now's not the time for me to ponder over that. See you soon blog.
-i try and try but in the end, my heart still prevails. such is my fate. =)-
The last few days following the end of my papers were exciting and fulfilling. I managed to meet my gang and cut my hair and see some people i've been meaning to see since long long ago. So meaningful and happy.
I can't believe that the end of exams on the 6th of May also marks the end of year1 in uni. Its so surreal that my first year has already passed. It only seems like yesterday when I got my appeal letter and acceptance. Time really flies. So many things have come to past too. Somehow i'm looking forward to next sem, to another ball game altogether.
Nah i'm not about to get all melancholy right now. I don't have the time to type out all of that emotions. I shall make this a short, happy post. =)
I've cut my hair. Year1's over and results would be out on the 29th. Look forward to it or wish that that day never arrives? Now's not the time for me to ponder over that. See you soon blog.
-i try and try but in the end, my heart still prevails. such is my fate. =)-
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
We humans are the ones that created computers....
it follows that they should take on some of our quirky characteristics....
like having shreds of information that can never be truly deleted from their databases...
only hidden within, trapped in the intricately pieced together motherboard...
waiting for the right trigger or meeting the right person before it all spills out again.
how apt.
it follows that they should take on some of our quirky characteristics....
like having shreds of information that can never be truly deleted from their databases...
only hidden within, trapped in the intricately pieced together motherboard...
waiting for the right trigger or meeting the right person before it all spills out again.
how apt.
