"Life's a BEACH, deal with it."
Yesterday was sentosa beach games day. Organised by Arts and Social Sciences Club.
-learned how to play touch rugby
-sat around and enjoy the sun upon my skin
-stand around admiring the blueness of the sky, the greenness of the trees, the turquoiseness of the sea.
-found out that i'm actually not too bad in frisbee. pleasant surprise!
-got the singlet. nice.
-saw disgusting sight of people who shouldn't be baring their "assets" in bikinis... Secondary boobs indeed.
-the sun was so stinging, i swear my scalp is sunburnt.
-my eyes were also sunburnt, everyone can't seem to stop remarking "eh joyce your eyes are VERY red leh, you okie or not?"
-going on stage for "don't forget the lyrics" and failing horribly at it
-gulping down many many mouthful of 100plus. Like 3 cans at least.
-people-watched
-felt like its vacation time already. Bali...
-slap on loads of sunblock. because of my ultra-sensitive skin. Forgot my neck area. ouch.
-squeeze into yongkang's car. 8 ppl in total in a 5 seater. Beat that! 3 guys 4 girls. Severely overloaded.
Wasn't exactly in the best of moods yesterday. Somehow, something was bugging me. Nothing that i can place my finger on. Probably a mixture of lack of sleep, someone pissing me off, someone else being irritating company, the super hot sun, playing a game(hardly) that I didn't really want to play, yearning for someone's company and being denied.
-oh gosh i need a bear hug. I want to be soothed and comforted. Like a baby... that's what i've been relegated to.-
I want to watch "confessions of a shopaholic".
I want a replay of last night!!! =)
One of the best nights i've had. Seriously.
What beats shopping with buddy belle then TIMBRE after that with her hall friends?
Its times like these that i'm really grateful i'm such a approachable person. xp
Shopping for sat. I realised i probably should get a two piece swimming costume. HAHA. That was an attempt to de-sexualise it. Failed didn't i? So down to far east we headed after my lessons. Whoohoo. The day doesn't end after 6! So after trying on a few of those above mentioned suits, we ended up buying something that we chose for each other. hahahaha. I still don't understand how that works. Maybe its because we choose according to our taste and perference so eventually whatever that was chosen would fit ourself better. A thought...
Yups so after that we headed down to timbre@arts house on a MONDAY night. =)
So glad that i went. Initially i was reluctant because i hardly know the people who are going... probably just know them by face and know that they are belle's friends. BUT i'm glad i made that leap of faith and decided to let my hair loose, to go drink booze, enjoy great music and make new friends! "Jie jiu xiao chou" too mah huh.
The canadian exchange students came and joined us too. 3 guys, out of which 2 are confirmed not native canadians. hahaha what does that imply? hmmhmm. Oh. and they are having so much fun here in nus, they are going to bali to play during recess week!!!!! The rest of us were staring at them in wonder and awe, i won't deny envy on my part too. Recess week is the time we all chiong for exams, trying to cram in everything learnt within the semester, hoping that last min work will help us scrape a decent grade... And here they are, vacationing during that critical period. Speechless. They are friendly people, nonsense filled. According to them, they don't play computer games back in their country. They only started when they got here because, "...there is just nothing to do in Singapore! Oh and the zoo sucks." LOL. This isn't the first time that i've heard that comment from a foreigner. In any case, we Singaporeans are constantly harping about "Where to go ar? Everywhere also so crowded. Also nothing to see one lo."
Towards the later part of the evening, where many of us have already taken about 2 cups of alcohol, we started loosening up more. (I shared my drinks!! And I really didn't drink much.) We got high and sang aloud to the live band. Since we were sitting right at the stage, the players talked to us and played requests nearing the closing time. Singing with our arms in the air, and even getting one of us to take the stage and sing a couple of songs, say isn't that the life? Cameras were working overtime that night. Photos are up on facebook as usual. =) Alot of blurred photos though due to lighting and novice camera users. HAHA.
After the whole episode at Timbre, we cabbed back to hall. It was my stayover day. Supper at Shears! Nice. =) I'm such a great koper of food la. Haha. Cheese fries and fried rice, cct, pancakes. OOH! I'm hungry now thinking of the food. Stay in hall and get fat in no time. I swear. haha.
After that belle went to craig's room and i went to crash at tianyi's room to see those lovely two balls of fluff. =) so adorable!! Only snowy bit my finger. ouch. Stayed there for very long because belle was taking her own sweet time. People come by and say hello, ask pointed qns, look at me in wonder... HAHA. Amazing. Only left quite late after belle came by and crashed out. In fact it was early morning when we left. I had only time for 1 and a half hr slp before i had classes. Yup my classes start at 8am. Go figure.
I love 23.03.09. Didn't regret going and doing all that i did. playback please? =))
Hate that I love you.
What's a man to do.
The 2 songs that were featured in the last dance of Temasek Hall dance concert today. Like that dance the most, maybe cause it struck that cord deep within me. Hmm..
Belle. U danced well. Glad that I went. =) See your hard work pay off. All those late nights that I know you had and those weekends burnt. Now that its over, I guess you would miss it all, but at the same time heave a sigh of relief. No more "ttyl, i got dance prac"!!! YAY totally looking forward to that.
Hmm. Saw jo after so long. Miss her so.
I wonder why is it that guys are nice to me. Now I'm paranoid. Save me.
Bye.
because they are mine. =)
Today i saw my cousins... I told the youngest "i miss you alot you know". She smiled shyly at me, allowing me to engulf her in a huge hug (considering the fact that she's still so small). Then she looked at me and nod her head in response to "do you miss me too?"
My heart... its all given away.
<3
a large part of it still lies with my darling.
What is joyce doing up so late? Her head is starting to pound. BOOS.
Hmm... U know the weird thing? I'm in hall now in lisabelle's room as always on monday nights cause of tuesdays morning 8am lessons. It is supposed to ensure that i can sleep more and wake up later for lessons. Yet it ends up being counter-productive. I don't sleep when i come over. Hmm.. I just came back from supper and bathing actually. Supper that was my dinner and supper combined. OMG i'm just going to balloon. Actually... not that anyone would really care. HAHA only my wardrobe would shrink cause i would refuse to wear certain pieces of clothing that would "show-off" my more-plus-sized-figure. ..
I'm missing home. Its so unexpected. I have no idea why in the last month or so.. i've been wanting to stay home, to go home, to be where i belong. I think its where i feel most comforted. URGH. I really don't like this feeling. I have never felt like this before all these things happened. The feeling that i need a safe habour. Somehow i detest the feeling because it only indicates just how dependent i have become, how frail my strength is when i'm all exposed to the "element" whatever they might be. My temper hasn't been well too. Nor my emotions. Stop complaining that i've been "fake laughing". I know. Just bear with it alright. I'm laughing really. Just that i'm not in a belly laugh. =) there's still that bit of joyce in there. hee hee.
Remember my last post? (just scroll down if not.) After evaluating the amount of work i have left to do, i kinda make sure i keep my panic level down. Its still going to be stressful weeks ahead but they don't look as daunting as before... thank goodness for group work. makes it all lighter somewhat. It sure does help that most of the group work are half done or more or less discussed. Makes me happier somehow. Well, my sense of time has been like shit recently. Like what i told my aunt... I think that last time i had something to look forward to, no matter how small, every single week. I had this reprieve from LIFE with a little away time with... now, every week is just a pain so i've stopped anticipating the work every week. With more time on my hands, i tend to just let it slip by. Someone please kill me. And the time is not used to do stuff like SLEEPING but they just slip away... like water slipping out of hands. Or eels wriggling out, so slippery it doesn't matter how tightly u hold on to them.
I have been taking advice and filling up my time. =) not that it actually helps cause stuff still linger in the subconscious of my mind. BUT at least i'm trying to do something about it!! I've been spending quite sometime with becky! Watched marley and me, had re ben cun, ben and jerry's, jitterbugs dance lessons, thai express with my girl. Haha, thanks girl for offering your time so generously to me. I appreciate it alot. Really. So much so i'm almost shedding tears. lol. stop laughing at me!! So i've signed up for broadway jazz. HAHA. can imagine me dancing?? So sorry jian, I'm going ahead with my plan regardless of how "off" u think me dancing will be. U'll soon get used to it i bet.
My complexion is getting bad.. then now getting better. but since i decided not to slp tonight.. i hate to think how ghostly i would look tml. So sorry for scarying whoever who sees me. xp
OH YA!! Today sure is a great day (or should i say ytd? since its like.. 4.25 now?) I saw azy,nad, jf and wanwan!!! How rare that i see them in sch.. much less seeing them all on the same day! I love my darling girls. =) They are really the reason why i am glad i went to mj. cause i got to know the whole gang. We can be thankful for all these little things. and the fact that i got my P.osh brownies today IN SCHOOL!!! should have seen my grin. =D
Other random comments made my day too... =)
Oh... Someone out there, i'm sorry if i don understand the concern that you have been showering over me, for a few years now. Not that i don appreciate it but just that you have a weird way of expressing it that just makes me pissed off instead.
Other funny things:
-Go to youtube, search for "torn mime" and prepare to laugh... it will help if ur mind is not entirely "clean" when u watch it. xp
- My new media lecturer doesn't know how to use youtube. He thought that if he pressed pause on the screen, it will literally cause all activities on that page to pause!!! Including the loading of the media. He's seriously hilarious. Esp when the 10 windows that he open appear to give out weird random sounds(since the videos are not paused...) during the length of his lecture... AND the best part? He's a new media lecturer...........
- a new emoticon: @:{)=== guess!
Ans: sikh with a turban and long beard!!! cute huh!
Alrighty that's all.. I have an assignment due on fri. And i have not started on it. RARRR.
byee.
NUS FASS: Life's a BEACH.
28th March 2009
Tanjong Beach, Sentosa
I'm so going. I miss the sun!!! and the fun!!! Just because life's a beach. =)
Week 11... Such a great time. I suspect that by then my eyebags will be HORRIBLE. ew.
6 more projs to go.
I so need that "Jiayou".
Byee
If I say I have fallen in love again.
What would you think?
=)
Possible not? And WHO?
on the day of the might-have-been 2 months.
Because i read something somewhere that touched me so...
When you left,
you said nothing would change
that we can be how we were before
you there for me, whenever
each existing in each others lives,
in each others hearts.
I don't doubt it
and yet when I say I miss you,
you fail to understand
that I miss you
and miss those times.
when...
the you were mine
and mine alone.
byee
I had such a wonderful day today. =)
我今天想用华语来表达自己。不知道为什么突然间会有这个念头,可能是想让自己再对华语产生兴趣 或是要让大家知道我的华文程度不是想象中的那么糟。
我觉得我是一个很重感情的人。无论是什么事我总是会以心情去做主,如果有必要我才会再用大脑三思。在我这十九年内我做了不少选择,没有什么是会让我感到后悔莫及的。
我总是觉得我在每一个感情上花了不少心思,也在自己和他人身上有很高的期望, 所以一次又一次的被伤害。是不是我太自私?还是因为我真的幻想了一个太美满的世界, 没有人能给我所求?
很简单的愿望和理想,很单纯的思想和美梦,我要怎么做才能拥有呢?我所爱的人你听到我在想你吗?我等。要有耐心。可是等的过程是很辛苦的。。。
TRANSLATION (for you lazy buggers)
Today i shall use chinese to express myself. I don't know where this thought came from. Maybe it is in a bid to let myself be interested in the language again or to prove to others that my standard of chinese is not as dismal as they thought.
I think that I'm a very emotional person. Every decision that I make, I tend to focus more on my emotions and let them lead me. Only when its really needed do I make the effort to evaluate my options with logical thought. In the 19 years of my life, I can't say that I've made any decisions that I have deeply regreted.
I think that I'm also a person that is very deliberate in her thoughts. I am also one that sets high expectations on myself and others around me, maybe that is why I get hurt so often. Higher expectations translate to greater disappointment afterall. Am I considered selfish then? Or is it because I pictured such a perfect world, one which no one is able to realistically give me?
Simple wishes and thoughts, naive thinking and dreams, just what must I do to obtain them? My loved one, do you hear my heart calling out to you? I wait. I must have patience. But you must know that the process is one filled with pain...
tata
I HATE MYSELF FOR PROCRASTINATING.
URGH I CAN TOTALLY KILL MYSELF FOR TORTURING MYSELF LIKE THIS.
STUPID S.E.A. ESSAY.
and i have a test on fri as well. HOW TO STUDY i ask u.
i'm so tempted to skip sch tml.
=(
JOYCE is such a MESS.
and its all her fault.
though not entirely..... =(
i want a whole month of break all to myself. and i plan ALL the activities and miraculously they will all come true and all paid for my the mystery of the godmother's wand. oh yes i dream...
"Joyce Lim needs a KEEPER!"
Its amazing. The number of interpretations this single sentence holds.
1. I, Joyce became a pet. Keeper= owner.
2. I am looking for a goal-keeper
3. Joyce needs a keeper (chickflick-girly sense... "Girl!! he's a keeper!")
4. Joyce needs someone to watch her and make her do work.