Thursday, March 05, 2009
我今天想用华语来表达自己。不知道为什么突然间会有这个念头，可能是想让自己再对华语产生兴趣 或是要让大家知道我的华文程度不是想象中的那么糟。
我觉得我是一个很重感情的人。无论是什么事我总是会以心情去做主，如果有必要我才会再用大脑三思。在我这十九年内我做了不少选择，没有什么是会让我感到后悔莫及的。
我总是觉得我在每一个感情上花了不少心思，也在自己和他人身上有很高的期望， 所以一次又一次的被伤害。是不是我太自私？还是因为我真的幻想了一个太美满的世界， 没有人能给我所求？
很简单的愿望和理想，很单纯的思想和美梦，我要怎么做才能拥有呢？我所爱的人你听到我在想你吗？我等。要有耐心。可是等的过程是很辛苦的。。。
TRANSLATION (for you lazy buggers)
Today i shall use chinese to express myself. I don't know where this thought came from. Maybe it is in a bid to let myself be interested in the language again or to prove to others that my standard of chinese is not as dismal as they thought.
I think that I'm a very emotional person. Every decision that I make, I tend to focus more on my emotions and let them lead me. Only when its really needed do I make the effort to evaluate my options with logical thought. In the 19 years of my life, I can't say that I've made any decisions that I have deeply regreted.
I think that I'm also a person that is very deliberate in her thoughts. I am also one that sets high expectations on myself and others around me, maybe that is why I get hurt so often. Higher expectations translate to greater disappointment afterall. Am I considered selfish then? Or is it because I pictured such a perfect world, one which no one is able to realistically give me?
Simple wishes and thoughts, naive thinking and dreams, just what must I do to obtain them? My loved one, do you hear my heart calling out to you? I wait. I must have patience. But you must know that the process is one filled with pain...
tata
我觉得我是一个很重感情的人。无论是什么事我总是会以心情去做主，如果有必要我才会再用大脑三思。在我这十九年内我做了不少选择，没有什么是会让我感到后悔莫及的。
我总是觉得我在每一个感情上花了不少心思，也在自己和他人身上有很高的期望， 所以一次又一次的被伤害。是不是我太自私？还是因为我真的幻想了一个太美满的世界， 没有人能给我所求？
很简单的愿望和理想，很单纯的思想和美梦，我要怎么做才能拥有呢？我所爱的人你听到我在想你吗？我等。要有耐心。可是等的过程是很辛苦的。。。
TRANSLATION (for you lazy buggers)
Today i shall use chinese to express myself. I don't know where this thought came from. Maybe it is in a bid to let myself be interested in the language again or to prove to others that my standard of chinese is not as dismal as they thought.
I think that I'm a very emotional person. Every decision that I make, I tend to focus more on my emotions and let them lead me. Only when its really needed do I make the effort to evaluate my options with logical thought. In the 19 years of my life, I can't say that I've made any decisions that I have deeply regreted.
I think that I'm also a person that is very deliberate in her thoughts. I am also one that sets high expectations on myself and others around me, maybe that is why I get hurt so often. Higher expectations translate to greater disappointment afterall. Am I considered selfish then? Or is it because I pictured such a perfect world, one which no one is able to realistically give me?
Simple wishes and thoughts, naive thinking and dreams, just what must I do to obtain them? My loved one, do you hear my heart calling out to you? I wait. I must have patience. But you must know that the process is one filled with pain...
tata
