Friday, October 24, 2008
YAY. ONE KILLER WEEK DOWN!!
I AM SO HAPPY!!
=)
dreading the getting back of results though. =x
ANYWAY, 3 DAYS FREE.
DATE ME?
=)
I AM SO HAPPY!!
=)
dreading the getting back of results though. =x
ANYWAY, 3 DAYS FREE.
DATE ME?
=)
This is going to be quite a hard post to write. I don't exactly know what i am going to input here but i know i need to get something out of me.
I just got home. from a mini date like thing. i'm not really sure what to call it but lets just leave it as that. I just wanna pour out some thoughts... that is if i can get them out of me...
i'm not too sure whether i enjoyed it or not. I think i went for it, just like i said before, to give myself a chance. i donno where this might be heading and the best part is, i donno if i even want it to head anywhere. The whole entire encounter was pleasant, i talked and shared quite a bit, listened too... walked alot doing nothing much really except talk and walk and sit down eat ice cream and talk more and walk home and talk more...typical huh.
i guessed the bottom line really is: he was not he. (2 people here..)
yes.
I just got home. from a mini date like thing. i'm not really sure what to call it but lets just leave it as that. I just wanna pour out some thoughts... that is if i can get them out of me...
i'm not too sure whether i enjoyed it or not. I think i went for it, just like i said before, to give myself a chance. i donno where this might be heading and the best part is, i donno if i even want it to head anywhere. The whole entire encounter was pleasant, i talked and shared quite a bit, listened too... walked alot doing nothing much really except talk and walk and sit down eat ice cream and talk more and walk home and talk more...typical huh.
i guessed the bottom line really is: he was not he. (2 people here..)
yes.
Monday, October 20, 2008
my feelings are in a turmoil. =(
one moment i'm grateful for someone walking in, the next i'm upset about someone walking out.
i really don't feel good about it.
at all.
i used to think i'm strong enough.
to tackle studies and relationships.
now i'm not so sure anymore.
i really don't want to feel this way at all because i know it doesn't change anything at all.
but i can't help it.
the feeling of loss and helplessness does seem to piggyback on me as and when, i can't even anticipate it.
6 weeks. i can't help it.
they say if ur eyelash drops, it means a certain someone is thinking of you.
in return place the eyelash on the tip of ur finger and mutter the name of that someone you are thinking of before blowing off the eyelash.
i've never stopped doing that.
silly? i really don't know.
and now i have to admit that there's someone trying to gain entry into my life.
i donno wad to think about it or do about it.
we'll see how it goes alright.
i guess i need to give myself a chance as well as you a chance.
it just pains me that you probably won't care.
i know i'd be jealous if i were in your shoes.
there are still so many things i don understand and i don't know in this world.
the sight of couples... =(
nvm i have my faithful bolster. hahahaa...
one moment i'm grateful for someone walking in, the next i'm upset about someone walking out.
i really don't feel good about it.
at all.
i used to think i'm strong enough.
to tackle studies and relationships.
now i'm not so sure anymore.
i really don't want to feel this way at all because i know it doesn't change anything at all.
but i can't help it.
the feeling of loss and helplessness does seem to piggyback on me as and when, i can't even anticipate it.
6 weeks. i can't help it.
they say if ur eyelash drops, it means a certain someone is thinking of you.
in return place the eyelash on the tip of ur finger and mutter the name of that someone you are thinking of before blowing off the eyelash.
i've never stopped doing that.
silly? i really don't know.
and now i have to admit that there's someone trying to gain entry into my life.
i donno wad to think about it or do about it.
we'll see how it goes alright.
i guess i need to give myself a chance as well as you a chance.
it just pains me that you probably won't care.
i know i'd be jealous if i were in your shoes.
there are still so many things i don understand and i don't know in this world.
the sight of couples... =(
nvm i have my faithful bolster. hahahaa...
Monday, October 13, 2008
Thursday, October 02, 2008
first time i'm using wireless@sg in the national library.
Why am i stuck here doing nothing? Pls tell me why am i being so nice?
I should have gone straight to school and sleep.
2 weeks now. What i have to do now is to get my heart to agree with my mind then i'll be fine.
It wasn't easy weathering everything but i'm glad i didn't have to do it alone.
Nor was there any need for explanations for my behaviour.
Mama mia is a really great movie. =) i highly recommend it. i enjoyed it so much i don't mind watching it all over again! The songs are really catchy. I especially love "honey honey"!!
"oh you make me dizzy!!" Now if only i have all the soundtracks. lovely.
So glad i watched it. Impulse though it was. And i had to urge gary to watch it.
WORTH IT. =)
Okie i really do wanna blog more but i'm too tired now and my lappie is dying on me. maybe tonights. =)
Why am i stuck here doing nothing? Pls tell me why am i being so nice?
I should have gone straight to school and sleep.
2 weeks now. What i have to do now is to get my heart to agree with my mind then i'll be fine.
It wasn't easy weathering everything but i'm glad i didn't have to do it alone.
Nor was there any need for explanations for my behaviour.
Mama mia is a really great movie. =) i highly recommend it. i enjoyed it so much i don't mind watching it all over again! The songs are really catchy. I especially love "honey honey"!!
"oh you make me dizzy!!" Now if only i have all the soundtracks. lovely.
So glad i watched it. Impulse though it was. And i had to urge gary to watch it.
WORTH IT. =)
Okie i really do wanna blog more but i'm too tired now and my lappie is dying on me. maybe tonights. =)
