my feelings are in a turmoil. =(
one moment i'm grateful for someone walking in, the next i'm upset about someone walking out.
i really don't feel good about it.
at all.

i used to think i'm strong enough.
to tackle studies and relationships.
now i'm not so sure anymore.
i really don't want to feel this way at all because i know it doesn't change anything at all.
but i can't help it.
the feeling of loss and helplessness does seem to piggyback on me as and when, i can't even anticipate it.
6 weeks. i can't help it.

they say if ur eyelash drops, it means a certain someone is thinking of you.
in return place the eyelash on the tip of ur finger and mutter the name of that someone you are thinking of before blowing off the eyelash.
i've never stopped doing that.
silly? i really don't know.

and now i have to admit that there's someone trying to gain entry into my life.
i donno wad to think about it or do about it.
we'll see how it goes alright.
i guess i need to give myself a chance as well as you a chance.
it just pains me that you probably won't care.
i know i'd be jealous if i were in your shoes.

there are still so many things i don understand and i don't know in this world.
the sight of couples... =(
nvm i have my faithful bolster. hahahaa...  ¶ 9:04 PM