2 years in JC is really hell. It is the bane of my life attending school and all the long long lectures. I have since started counting down the time left for each lecture... yeah it has become that bad. =( In fact these few days i seem to be developing some stress related symptoms. I am highly stressed whenever there is more work being given and have i been in denial? Bahs. It is affecting me so bad that i feel so drained. Maybe it is the hormones, i try to comfort myself but that is not going to help the situation. I need a long long break in asylum. Period.

Things i have to do:
Geog marina barrage project due this fri
Ongoing chem tuts (one whole mountain of it)
Study for lousy maths test tml
Stress my brains contort it into some shape to understand any part of ECONS
Prepare for the presentation of geog during lect
Attempt to start studying for the ever-so-important block tests

The only lousy comfort that i can derive from the whole situation is that my friends are in it together with me and i won't ever be stuck in this shit hole situation for my entire life- i rather commit suicide and die a horrible terrible death. Bahs.  ¶ 8:21 PM 0 Comments

  4F outing today. As expected, i was late. But turns out that the earliest is only on the dot. Me and becky arriving at 1210 plus were the 2nd to arrive!! Goodness! Seems like the situation of late people is worsening. Waited till we almost gave up for the remaining people who took their time trickling there in various degrees of lateness. Some being late were still at home when we called them. CHAMPIONS! I don't noe wad to say about them.

Anyway. The people who turned up:
ME! =)
Becky
Chaijun
Violet (the earliest!)
Dazzalyn
Marie
Serene
Joyce wong
Zhirong
Malcolm
Wee chuan
Alan
Zhao Xiang

Not bad a turn out considering. =) Had fun having kenny rogers and camera whoring. I think the amount of photos that we took could easily amount to 100 or more. Imagine. The people in the restaurant must be pretty amused by the various poses that we struck. What an embarrassment!

What a day... =)  ¶ 8:02 PM 0 Comments

  It has been a while baby!!
Haha grabbing some time before i leave house on the way to meet becky and the rest of beloved 4F. I have limited time of 5 minutes to blog before i'm running late for the meeting. I shall just risk it then. Have not known becky to be early once! Oh well.. That's bad of me. xp

It has been a long long week. Irony actually because the week started officially on wed due to CNY celebrations and hols. However many things happened that made the week seem longer than it actually is. Firstly i really understand the phrase or saying that one should really treasure those around them before it is far too late. It is really important that we show our care and concern to those that we love because you never know wad tml might bring. Maybe the next day dawns and someone backstabs you unfairly and totally rediculously but there was no room for explanation? The friendship might just be gone forever. I try my best to keep in touch and i'm glad for msn that allows me to drop a hello now and then to someone. Life is also fragile. Just treasure it. There can never be one too many day.

This is also the week where there is homework overload. I actually stayed in sch till late to rush homework. It is craziness. I was still in sch even after the badminton ppl had finished their training. Can u imagine how late that was? At least i was being rather productive. Gleeful. =)

I love playing volleyball. My lousy non-existent skills have developed into SMILES. Haha. At least now i can control the ball to where i want it to. I still need to work on the amount of strength used to hit the ball though. It tends to go a little too far for spiking. I hope that's how you spell it. But after playing volleyball, i got that satisfaction and also, OUCH my arm felt as though it was repeatedly punched till the whole arm had bruises. It hurts and i can hardly bend my wrist without wincing in pain. Blahz. At least i had fun. xp

Oh... cny was not really fun but at least i got to meet up with my relatives that i hardly meet ever and some of my friends. =) That's the best part of it all. Hmm.. maybe besides the ang bao collecting part? Nah i'm not that superficial i hope nor materialistic. Bahs. I love all of YOU. yay.

I'm late. !!!!!!!!!!!  ¶ 10:52 AM 0 Comments

  HI my darling blog i'm here again. =)

Today in a bid to know myself a little better i shall think about some questions ask myself these questions and look at the answers..

What i like about myself?
Come to think about it, there are actually lots of things that i love about myself. The saying goes that you have to love yourself before you have the capacity to love others so here goes.
I love the fact that i am ME. Not all parts of me because i accept the undeniable fact that everybody has imperfections.
I love the fact that i am random, so much so that i entertain myself.
I love it that i treasure my friends. Those who are worthy at least. xp
I love it that i am always(mostly) trying my best.
I love it that i am sociable.
I love it that i have the courage to approach virtually unknown people on the streets.
I love it that i am smart sometimes.
I love the way i am able to smile at almost everything.
I love the way i am bold and selfish sometimes.
I love the way i am able to understand even the most profound thing (maybe)
I love the fact that i love music
I love the fact that i am made to love
I love the little butterflies that i have when i'm nervous
I love the fact that i rmb small stuffs that happen and are significant to me
I love the fact that i am able to keep secrets
I could just go on and on...

It is important to think about the not so positive side too...
I dont like it that i am quite superficial at times in terms of outward appearance and friendship
I dont like it that i am not able to stay strong at the darkest hour
I dont like it that i am not able to voice out all my displeasures
I dont like it that i prefer to remain in silence
I dont like it that i am always shy with guys that i like face to face
I dont like it that i am so easily affected by people's feelings and emotions
I dont like it that i am easily swayed by different opinions
I dont like it that i neglect friends because of other friends
I dont like it that i sometimes do things that i feel obliged to
I dont like it that i am overly optimistic sometimes
I dont like it whenever i give up on myself
I dont like the fact that i am quite petty
I dont like the fact that i do judge people by their appearances
I dont like it whenever i bitch about people. I feel bad.
I dont like it that i take such long times to get over hurt and pain
I dont like the fact that i get wounded emotionally very easily
And many more...

To get a partner is to find someone who is able to accent or complement your good points while making up for all the other areas that you are lacking in. Someone to fill up the gaps to make you whole.
Good friends and trustworthy friends are like entwined fingers...  ¶ 5:28 PM 0 Comments

  Came with the intention to blog but my minds kinda blank now...

Holding my breath waiting for something to happen. Not entirely sure what but just hope that something would happen. Then i would not have waited in vain.

CNY is here. No excitement this year though. Even the thought of new clothes does not perk me up. There is just no atmosphere.

-Moreover you would be miles away.-

Am i being moody??

Labels: musings, personal

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  So many so many things happened and i have not blogged about them. I was not in the mood to type about them so.. I shall juz summarise what happened the last couple of days since i last blogged.

Sat
A day filled with fun laughter joy and love. I enjoyed my day spent walking around the whole shenton way area. And when i say the whole area my route included walking from tanjong pagar to outram park to chinatown and down to raffles place. Company of the day was pres, iris(xuan), loraine and ME! =) I'm pretty much of a self entertainer i realised. Haha... Geog fieldwork. Fun, we got much work done, interacting, finding out that i'm a scout leading the way the whole time, being a girl looking into mirrors. xp

Sun
A family day. My darling cousin's birthday and she turned 2 with chorus of happy birthday sung with heartfelt love and care from the family. Even my greatgrandma was there(though i kinda think she went there cause of mahjong games! lol. >.<) A year older, lots prettier, got much more spunk, and not to mention adorable!!!An older picture of her...



Mon tue
Nothing much happened. =) Just normal sch days. Received presents from angel. Nice of him to get me something... Training on mon was fun cause i felt as though i learnt something. Coach wants me to understand the meaning of "patience". Haiz...

Wed
Valentine's day!!! =)
I'm a happie gal indeed. I was not forgotten. Little little presents from people, momentos. I even got a photo of roses from wei. haha.. Creative. =) Tab gave me something too...
Morning was reserved for S501. Breakfast at macs and chatting. Long time since we did that. The whole class was late for attendence taking and poor ms sim was stuck in class with only 2 other members of the class. LOL!! Ooh! And i saw ted with a date. Haha.. Super funnie!! Chocs all around.
I have nice nice presents. I love them all. =) I feel so loved and all. Whoo! of course i do envy those with boyfriends! They are so pampered and you can just see the glow of contentment and "xing fu-ness" around them. Haiz if only i was just as lucky... But nvm there's always next yr! =)
okie and i need to go wrap some stuffs le. =) Cya!  ¶ 4:29 PM 0 Comments

  Craziness. The time is 620 in the morning. I juz did a really crazy thing...
Ytd i ignored my alarm clock and woke up late.. Thank goodness its wed.
Today i thought i ignored the alarm and woke up super early...
Phantom alarm clock.

The most crazy thing is i even went to check the time before i got outta bed. Guessed i should have taken a glance at the hour instead of only at the minutes. OMG. I went to bathe get ready for school change and all and i left the house only to reach the bus stop in total puzzlement wondering why is the roads so dark and why is there no other living soul around except me...

Came all the way home. My dad reckons it is the stress. Lol. I don't know wad to say... Slept at 1 and made me wake up before 6. Urgh i din even get enough slp time!! Somehow i think i'm really "damn" smart. *smacks head* Hopeless...

-loves-

No nothing seems to be going right...  ¶ 6:15 AM 0 Comments

  I just feel like writing something so... Yeah.

A few days few hours and then some
Fretting wondering worrying
Have i crossed the boundaries
Have i gone too far

I am but a simple person
simple needs and simple wants
And yet sometimes things become obscure
As i reach for the moon

I can't help but feel as though i am being manipulated
By those that understand me more than i do myself
Insecurity due to irrationality
Or am i just being too much of a introvert

Heart hung on a string
Attached to my sleeve
Emotions visible to all
Keeping it to myself like precious gems
Never one that was good at it

Vulnerable to sharp objects
To hurtful words and actions
And worst of all
To neglect by you

I do not ask for much
Just for you to be there
Through thick and thin i dare not ask
Just bless me with your assuring presence

They say that time will tell
But a whole new story it has spun
As i fall deeper into the plot
That has so deeply entwined me

Can rationalism ever be independent
Of feelings and emotion
Will being sensible
Cure all of the heartache

A simple question i ask of you
Who am i to you  ¶ 10:51 PM 0 Comments

  RoadRACE!

Yesterday was roadrace. I ran!! Not a good placing but i felt satisfied with myself for pushing myself at the point where i really felt like walking and stopping. I ran all the way!! Aren't u proud of me?? Xp

The photos are not with me again... Well i shall wait for them.=)

A great affair. I'm still happy with myself. Finally my stamina improved. Haha. For me that is really a personal achievement so blahz to those who think that they are superior. Who cares about what you think!

After the run watched the houses come in after their turn. Sitting at the bridge and waving to them all. =) It was so funny as we started to wave at random people and even animals. (But the dogs were so cute that we can't juz pass them by!) Saw all the lousy ppl who refused to run competitively. EW!! LOL.. no offense. heez.

Phobos did quite badly this time again. Sadly... How come that green house is always in the leading?? Are the phobos people really that unfit?!?! I'm puzzled. Is it because of the spirit of the house? No ans to that...

Roadrace finally ended and i rushed home to bathe before going out again. This time with the family. I'm so glad to say that i found clothes!! New clothes for me!! OOH! And i forgot to mention that loraine's sister made earrings for me and i LOVE them. <3 totally. =) Yup so off to bugis and jurong point. Can u imagine the pain of sitting from pasir ris all the way to boon lay?? I so totally suffered. Slept most of the way anyway. And i saw lennard. Randomness. Bugis bugis bugis!! Dorothy perkins and topshop. Loves. Clothes for me!! =) Got so many tops but no nice black shade jeans. I'm so sad.. Pls don't make me crazy and ask for that black one from mango cause it is a crazy 90 bucks!!! OKie...

Hmm.. I think my dad's thinking of buying me that ipod or some mp3 to replace my lousy and currently spoilt for good creative mp3. Yayness. Maybe a nice ipod. =) I'm so spoilt. And i can get my new phone like around july. Oh no!! I'm such a spendtrift!! I'm becoming so bimbo. Madness. Haha. But i totally love the feeling of being pampered. Xp

Now.. if only U would pamper me too. My world would spin so fast that it would make me so dizzy. =) -loves-  ¶ 7:08 PM 0 Comments

  Oh look!! My blog can about have its privatised status cause i doubt anyone reads it since my tagboard is all but DEAD. Well a good thing. =) Don't have to worry too much about wad i say. (i think...) Lol!

Hmm... Things have been pretty intense the last week being bombarded with tests, tests and yet more tests. Things did not really look up till friday. I had such a wonderful day on friday!! For one, it was the last day of the torturous week!! Hmm that was the day that i had the geog fieldtrip to URA. Supposedly to learn about urban planning in singapore. I can't say that i have learnt much but i definately would say that it was a great fieldtrip. For one moment it totally felt as though i was a primary school kid enjoying and anticipating the excitement of "having lessons outta school".

The journey there...




Totally camera whoring such that the driver was annoyed as we blocked his view of the back. Lol! What else do you expect with a gals class like ours?? XP

Then it was the long long walk around and the plain silliness of us being childish and acting really "arts". *arts means the way that artsy ppl behave. Generally they are believed to behave in a different way frm their sci counterparts but controversy is involved. Beware of how u use it...

After the long talk by the HR personal about singapore landuse. Not much wow factor there... I was kinda tired so i almost fell asleep. *shh*




Outside again!! All running to take a photo together. The funny thing is, whenever a few people, say 3 ppl, pose for a photo, it would always be joined by all the rest. Cries of "i also wanna take photo" or "wait for me" can always be heard.. HAHA! <3 06S501


See that building behind there? It is the red dot design museum and the whole exterior of the building is painted that fire engine red. So cool!! We went there to explore after leaving the rest. That is, me, sam, wanying and bev. I think it is really a nice place. U can even see the old letter boxes that are red all lines up in a row. The artsy fatsy feeling is all around and the murals on the pillars are so plain nice that i want to reproduce it on my bedroom wall! Too bad i don't have the paint nor the skill. =( No photos as of yet. All are with wanying!

After that it is off to chinatown for us but not before we try the famous ham jin peng from maxwell foodcentre. Gosh! The man that made the delicious buns was so old i could swear that he looked ancient! Makan a little and off to the NIGHT BAZZAR!

An experience not to be forgotten, the night bazaar is so fun! ANd crowded of course but all in all it was great excitement to be there. Not an experience i could guarantee that you would be able to find in one of those cold cold shopping centres. =) I liked the whole feeling. Shopping and tasting the various food and goodies that were being offered to us. It was pure enjoyment! heex. The food there was simply interesting! There was a huge variety and i'm not only talking about the common new year goodies and sweets. It includes the food that are brought over from other countries like thailand and china. We are really becoming a global city aren't we? The native food can even be found in such places!! We bought some kinda pancake thingy that has sugar wrapped in it and it tasted so good. The thais were selling it. The other kinda crips was also seen i really don't know what u call that but it is really common in thailand was also sold. Nice!! =) The thais were also wearing the tee that they were wearing for the king's birthday. Such a familiar sight to me. Remembering the times that i spent in bangkok...

Food from china's provinces was also found. I think in this case it was some sort of meat skewers that look like our satay. Didn't try it but it does look appetising. Many foreigners were also hawking their wares and i even found several mp3 players(ipod) that were selling at a rediculous price of $68 for 1G memory. What a fake!

As the sky grew darker, more and more people started to appear. The streets became so crowded that i really had to squeeze my way through. Shopping and stopping at any store that caught our fancy was so relaxing. =) I could do it again anytime!! I enjoyed the company too. <3

Soon it was late and we all had to leave for our various lodging and appointments. It was with regret that we left. Chinatown had never been so fun before!!  ¶ 6:01 PM 0 Comments