It has not been an easy year.
Lots of tears, heartaches, disappointments, failures, troubles..
However it would be utter rubbish to say that it has only been that.
Life is but a mayrid of colours.
If my life was such a palette of dark gloomy colours, i would probably be sunk in depression.

It has been a fun year too.
Lots of new revelations about myself, fun, joy, pure happiness, truths, bitching moments, great friends...
Now that makes up the more cheerful part of my rainbow.
I remember this "Life is not just rainbows and butterflies"
Yet no one has the right to say that it does not contain them either.
Now that the year is coming to an end, it is time to recollect the precious memories,
Hurtful or joie de vivre moments,
They were an integral part of our lives at one moment and they will now be part of the watercoloured memories stored away. =)

This blog has been my blank canvas since i started it.
Reading through the various posts makes me smile or some occational time, cry (rarely so..)
I never regreted starting it. =)
It will always be a tribute to the splatter of vivid memories of my life...
Also an outlet for me to vent my frustrations whenever i felt opressed
It is also a wonderful way that my friends out there reading to know what i'm going through
It is amazing how much u can keep in touch with a person by taking some time off
Or when support seems to appear expecially after bad posts, its heartwarming... =)

With the stupid stressful schedule,
Time might not be on our side
But a blog makes things easy to read and comprehand. =)
A little effort by both parties make all the difference in the world. YAY!

I've had a good year.
One of the best of my entire life!
I learnt how to cope with losses,
To accept what has been given to me.
My choices...
Some i don regret making them.
And others, though i would prefer them to turn out differently,
I've learnt to be grateful for my lot.
Everything does happen for a reason.
This yr is especially significant because of the choices that i made.
The JC life is also a huge change.
The fact that i'm denied what i had hoped for
Ouch it was painful...
The saying goodbye, the parting.
(Now tears are threatening to fall.)
It was saddening but it was worth it.
I enjoyed the times spent while it lasted.

VJC Orientation- illumo
06S56
Odac
Interact club
MJC Orientation- alhena 7
06S501
Squash

I shan't go on further
It is kinda raking up certain memories that i don't wanna face now
But it has been a good year. =)
I can only hope next yr would be better.

Happy new year my dear friends!! =)  ¶ 4:29 PM 0 Comments

  Finally!! I swear the internet connection is like crap now, seriously nothing different from the prehistoric days when it was first introduced. I took a total of approx 6 mins to get to this pg!

Whew... Totally enjoy talking to cs online leh. Weid huh? Considering that i only like met him face to face 2 times? Amazing!

Hmm... Sch's gonna reopen damn soon. I wonder what to expect. I know it would be a grulling year but juz how bad it is juz gotta experience it first hand next yr. I hope i get time off for play too. I hope.

And i also wish that the internet connection and all the cables be fixed fast. I don like the current slow-pok speed it is worse than even the dial-up connection??  ¶ 11:31 AM 0 Comments

  Last christmas i gave u my heart
the very next day u gave it away
This yr to save me frm tears
I give it to someone special! =)

I think i got my christmas prezzie this afyrtnoon. Unexpected but a surprise. And i do love such lovely surprises. Heex!! Shall keep it to myself. =) Ooh! And i noe a saint today.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =)  ¶ 4:43 PM 0 Comments

  BLISS! That could only be the word to describe ytd. =)

Slacked around at home for half the day before leaving for tab house. Movie marathon! Hahaz. Finished watching 'legally blond' after procrastinating for so so long. At least the ending is nice. The good guys won anyhow. Heex. Then watched something along the lines of 'win a date with Ted Hamiliton" Not too sure about the spelling but i suspect that the movie is so 70s. The whole movie smells of 70s and all! Of course we watched " devil wears prada" too. Din finish watching it though. Any kind souls out there have a copy of it to lend me?? I so wanna know what happened at the end without spoilers. =)

Hong came lots later than me. By the time that she came we already finished umz total 1+ movie and dinner included. Braiding hair, matching tab's mismatched clothes( in the end she decided that the trees are good models and wore all green with a brown bag and a giraffe down her neck. LOL), them giving me christmas cards, sitting and talking on the sofa, wait for hong to have her donner... Till it was about 6 plus 7 we left for tab's church. I forgot the name of the church le but it is located within the compound of st hildas pri. Opposite lighthouse. Overhearing convosation while walking, there was this man giving directions and landmarks on how to get to the specific place. He mentioned that the other party should look out for the 'lighthouse' so i thought.. Hmm.. great if the other party has a car he can drive along the coast looking for the real lighthouse. LOL! Okie i noe that was... -.-" But jus for the sake of it. xp

The drama that we were supposed to be watching in the church was great fun. Discovered so many great vocalist there. Wonderful voices that soar effortlessly, so pure and heartfelt. I'm so moved by their voices. So sweet... The 3 of us had fun, sitting beside each other. During certain parts of the service, we had to explain certain stuffs to hong since it was after all her first time in a chrurch. Hahaz.. When silence was called for we bowed our heads as discretion was ordered however hong took it as the time for prayer. So focused she was. Hahaz. Such innocence, sweet sweet innocence.

I enjoyed myself so much. Everything put tgt for a wonderful evening. Had to say that the best element of the whole evening was of course having my dearest friends there with me. Why be someone else when u can be urself with people like them? I had no inhabitations when answering their enquires about my feelings, my thoughts and my own denial. Hahaz.. Sisterhood yeah!! We should go out much much more. Another prized friendship. =) Ooh.. Bliss...

And yes i do agree i miss him my darlings! And it does not really mean anything. Goodness! xp  ¶ 4:13 PM 0 Comments

  =) Smiles all around...
Christmas is coming!! Like real soon!! =)
Can't help but feel excited.
Hope i don't get weird prezzies like barbie dolls again.
So omgness-ish.
Heex.

Time really really flies juz when u are having fun!! The whole week juz like flew past me in a glitter of colours and with such a mesmerising scent. LOL! Wad a load of crap. I really enjoyed my week though. =)

Been raining like free like that. Amount of rain is enough to fill 10 million empty pails!! And it is freezing cold! Heavy huge rain= Stay at home day. Took care of my darling bro. =) See i'm such a nice jiejie. Heex. Made him high tea and all that. Ensure that he is happy watching tv listening to songs or at least doing something. Hahaz.. Not bad la considering that i got to enjoy his company too. Not often do i have the time to sit down and juz talk to him. Hahaz.. Juz neglect such sisterly duty. (guilty) And i haven't been doing my hw. (double guilty) Go out with friends and all. (triple guilty). Grr...

Hmm.. lets do a recount of umz that weird day.
So my p6 class organised a class outing for us. Actually a bbq but turned out to be a gathering with soul garden. Not that i actually went for the dinner. Before that i was busy rotting at home. Then going to pam pam house to rot more there watching tv. Goodness u gotta trust me on this. She is an absolute coach potato!! She insists that she can watch tv and watch time pass like water for the entire day! OMG. Anyway, we rotted and walked in the rain to WS where all the people seem to be gathering. In the morning they went for a really early movie but i din join them cause i was busy having fun in sch playing an assortment of games. =) Who said we could get keys to the squash courts was so so wrong so in the end we played volleyball and tennis instead. So i joined them(p6 class) only at 6 plus. Due to the fact that pam did not feel comfortable in their presence, we did not join them when they said they were going to tampines. Pam was lazy. =/ Honestly speaking i felt kinda weird too. I mean since when have u been with a grp of friends that u noe u should be familiar with having spent at least a yr of ur life wif them but yet not recognising half of the people present? That was my situation. I was trying to crack my brains to think of their names!! And faced with the fact that someone kindly pointed out, 2 of the people present were actually mjc-ians. Alright i do admit that they are familiar faces and i do noe they exist in the mj community but i can safely say that to them i was a stranger. They don even figure out that i exist! Goodness. In the end me and pam decided to juz have dinner tgt and catch up with each other instead of trying to be polite. We were kinda too tired for that. Coupled with that was also pam's langugae that made me stay. "Go la if u wan. I don't wanna go. U go la then i go home." Grr just how guilty can one make me?!!!!

Din regret my choice. She is no matter wad still my blossom buddy and has been since umz p4?! Hahaz.. U can say that we do have a kinda "history" tgt. Hahaz.. Well it is that kinda friendship that never fails when u need it the most. And i have a tendency to rmb things. Small things that are not significant and when mentioned would only earn a wave of the hand, brushing it off. Okie i admit i'm weird. LOL! Nah not really... But it helps to pull the distance of time a lot closer than possible. We were chatting nineteen to a dozen about all the recent happenings in our life as well as remembering childhood times. All as though it was only a day before that we met up. =) Craziness!....totally with her. Smiles. What a day..

Going over to tabby house later... Umz swimming? watching movie? Some drama at her church too... Gal night out. =)

I'm lazy le. Not blogging till i have the mood. Cheers.  ¶ 10:55 AM 0 Comments

  It was the last day that i would ever be working with this whole variety of people. For the last time. And i totally enjoyed it. Even though there were bitchy moments and irritable people getting on my nerves at some point or another, it was still on the whole, an experience that i would not be likely to forget for a long time yet.

It was a week that i received and gave the most hugs and kisses. The week where i felt the most compasionate. The week where i was the most tired out. The week where everyday brings with it new things and late endings. The catching of the last train. The rushing home. The week where i felt truely loved by everyone around me. =) Who ever said bad things about DS people? Their willingness and ability to love like no normal person makes up for all the difficulties. A smile can really light up ur day. =)

Theatre work is kinda fun... At least i can say i enjoyed it. Sewing the clothes because it seems as though i'm the only one there who can sew. And also ironing clothes. I got a burn! On my poor poor thumb. Ouch.

All part of the beautiful memory... I miss them all. =)  ¶ 4:00 PM 0 Comments

  Chalet!!! I had the time of my life there. I really missed those people. Secondary school friends are just not exactly comparable to any other friends made during our journey in life. For me they are special. =)

Love the atmosphere that is carefree and full of love whenever i am surrounded by them. True gambling was the main activity of the chalet but we played "old maid" and "polar bear" too. Childish games that had us in excitement. Totally cute! I enjoyed every minute of it.

Slept on the bed a little earlier than the rest. But don be envious of me. I woke up with back aches cause of the awkward sleeping position i was in. The worst thing was that i could not even go home and slp after the chalet cause i had my cip attachment. Wonderful attachment had me on my feet till 1030 that night. Yup i just woke up. Even so, not enough slp!!! Still falling asleep everywhere that is remotely comfortable. Hahaz...

Alright i'm running late again!! Got cip attachment again. Another long and tiring day.. Full dress. Oh man! Bye!

-It was only a few hours ago and yet i'm already missing you.-
-Apparently you don't feel the same way too-  ¶ 2:10 PM 0 Comments

  Blessed with perfect features
Blessed with intelligence
U don't know how blessed u are till u see others who are not as fortunate as u are.


Ytd was a really eventful day for me. The starting of my cip attachment programe with DSA. For the uninitiated, DSA simply means Down Syndrome Association. It was really a whole new experence for me seeing those kids/adults being rendered handicapped due to the presence of the extra chromosome. THe 21st chromosome. Now, who ever said more was better??

Interacting with those in the room that i was put in charged of made me realise a couple more things about these special people. (Oh i forgot to say that i was at victoria theatre where there is supposedly a theatre gost haunting the fourth floor. Xp Heex. Anyway, i was there to help out in the event that DSA was having to raise awareness of the DS people. They are having a concert at victoria theatre on the 16th of Dec. U can contat sistic for tix details and the charges are $25 and $35.. I think...) I was put in charged of this dressing room. It happens to be a guys changing room. Hahaz! So what i have here are mostly thoughts that i have about these guys. (No! Don't think dirty!!) At first glance, they look pretty young. Innocent, naive, perfectly comfortable with them calling me jie jie. But, when i started asking for their ages did i realise that omg! they are much older than me only they don't look their age! One of them was even 25!! They just have this babyish look around them i suppose.

Some of them have slurred speech so u have to pay really close attention to them when they are trying to express themselves. It is also perfectly alright to ask them to repeat what they have said. For my case, it took me a while to get used to the slow and slurred form of speech but once i got the hang of it, i realise that they do like the reassurance when u repeat what they said. It is like a confirmation of ur understanding. Sentences are coherent and understandable. =)

They are also affectionate and caring. I was not bored when in their company because just a simple prompt would lead to a whole string of related conversation. Oh! And within minutes of knowing who i am, they started matchmaking me with each other!! Hahaz! How hilarious. They just love to tease each other. Upon seeing others that they know, they do not hesitate but hug each other. I am talking about gals and gals as well as boys and boys as well as gals and boys. There is no awkwardness but just pure and simple affection for each other.

I rmb one scene vividly. One of the guys told me that he is married! I was shocked! It is not as though they can't marry but just that the fact that one of the guys that has been calling me jiejie the whole time is married. It is just too bizarre! After getting my wits back, i asked him "So how old are you again?" And his reply made me laugh. "I am 18". Now now, that is like the legal age to marry but i seriously doubt that he is really married because right after i asked, the rest in the room started declaring that whoever and whoever is married and whoever is my galfriend. Hahaz..I had lots of fun. =)

Now i think i have said enough. For more information, pls do not hesitate and access the following link to learn more. http://www.downsyndrome-singapore.org/  ¶ 11:56 AM 0 Comments

  Tml will be the start of my cip attachment.
Totally don't like the fact that it clashes with 4F chalet and squash training.
Sorrie lihong but i can't do anything about the clash.
Lonely but not for long alright? =)
And i will so miss 4F.
No no.. I so don't like this.
=(

-can't you be somewhere closer rather than a few hours of flight away?-  ¶ 9:07 PM 0 Comments

  The land of smilies. Which country goes by that tagline? No where else except Thailand. =)

Just got back home not too long ago. At 12 plus last night to be exact. Glad that i'm back where i belong. Though i still reminise about the 5 exciting days that i spent in thailand, learning lots and seeing lots.

Shopping at Thailand is a must. Barginning skills put to the test. My mom is practically a pro at that!! So many things were bought at a fraction of the original price due to her superb skill. Heex. Bought a couple of things but not as many as i thought i would buy. Probably due to the things becoming more and more expensive due to the reputation of being THE shopping paradise for everyone, tourists especially. Things are not as cheap as before. Considering the bag that i bought, it deprived me of much much money to spend on other things but nope i don't regret buying the bag. Leather. =) Nice and would last me a good couple of dozen of years. Hahaz.. =) Clothes are plentiful. Thailand is practically a gal's paradise. I so don't blame all the guys who prefer being gals because the amount of gal stuff is overwhelming and of a large variety. There is even a whole street or shopping mall that sells 90% female products like shoes, clothes, hair ribbons, pedicure manicure, spas... U name it, they have it. And i do have to say that there are LOTS of transvisites. Almost everywhere. Some are really beautiful only when they speak do you know that they were once of the opposite gender. I wonder what went wrong.

Anyway, enough about that. Hmm.. Shopping there is a whole new experience. Things are sold everywhere, on the streets, in food places, hotels. Aiyo i cannot finish naming it all. Just too many. Food is also sold everywhere in pushcart style. It is simply amazing how easy it is to start a business there. All you need would be a pushcart where u can hawk your wares. U can "park" it anywhere you like. Put up a few more chairs and there u have it, a road side stall with customers. Their style of living is so simple. They do not seem to be in a constant rush like how u experience in singapore. Due to the relatively lesser competition there i would guess, the whole atmosphere is one of relaxation, some place where u can let your hair down, relax and just enjoy the day without having much worry. Even those who do business in shopping centres, when buying clothes, they would urge u with a "You can try". The way that they speak also depicts their livestyle. Gentle and soothing it is almost like they were singing some melodious folk song. Pleasant to hear. Ooh! And they love to say the phrase "same same". Also, as they do not really understand english. they tend to just answer in the affirmative when posed a question that they do not understand. This leads to much laughter because of the way the response do not fit the question. =) Hand signals are important then. Hees.

I like some of the people that i met there. There was this taxi driver that drives a hot PINK taxi. Early in the morning, after our breakfast, walking out of the hotel, he approached us offering to drive us to the famous MBK centre for shopping however, he added that MBK does not open so early so he would bring us cruising around the area. He said that he would bring us first to a gem centre open by the government before sending us to MBK. At first we were reluctant because we were not interested in gems however, he added that if we do go to the gem centre, we would be inevitably helping him by earning him coupons that can be accumulated for gasoline. The system goes in a way where if a taxi driver brings potential customers to the gem centre, the driver is rewarded with one coupon. If the customers were to buy anything from there, they would earn 2 coupons. For every 10 coupons, the driver is able to get 5 litres of gasoline. I think that this is a good system because it is based on a mutual benefit system. The gem centre gets potential customers while the drivers get gasoline which helps them keep their taxi running. =)

Another person that left an impression on me would be the lady that sole us those bags. She was really kind, chatting us up in a way that was neither offensive nor irritating. It is really for conversation sake. Allowing us to browse through her wares with total ease. Even when my mom drove a hard bargin with her, she was pleasant throughout, even offering us bottles of water when we were thirsty. A kind and nice woman who likes calling us "darlings..." =)

The people were nice. The traffic horrific. They love to speed!!! And take backlanes illegally. The kind of transport that they have vary from buses to motortaxi. Just hop on the motorcycle and the driver would weave through the traffic to your destination. Should that happen in singapore, it would be interesting. But the government would be sure to forbid it listing the 'citizens safety' as piority.

OKie i'm off to watch 'full house'. More the next time.

Ooh.. and i so miss all of u!!  ¶ 4:29 PM 0 Comments