Sunday, April 19, 2009
"You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that."
I just saw the above quote when blog-hopping a while ago. Sets me thinking and in a way, it sure is a great wrap-up quote for this entire week.
It has been a roller-coaster week for me. No not in terms of studies. I had my projects done since last week. More like in terms of my emotions and mental health. Of course certain people would know what i am referring to. How i was so affected and just keep acting like a freaking 90 yr old engine, breaking down coughing dust. Hmm my sleeping patterns were a more accurate indication of that. Insomnia took control of my sleep. urgh. And there was this one night that i couldn't sleep because i could hardly breathe after all those tears. Hmm thankful for those who stayed up with me!
In any case, one episode of my life has just finished production. I shall now proceed to tie up all the loose ends and place that roll of film into the storage room. I now sleep better (LOADS) and feel much happier.
You know what you have done. Somethings will just haunt your memories. Some people will never fade. It pricks at your conscious. I think I gave everything I could. And now I can give no more because I feel that I'm only being taken advantage of and because of the possibility that you don't care for all of that anyway. You know how depressing that is to me.
Anyway, I remember a quote from GG said by Blair that goes along the lines of... "I like watching those movies over and over again because that way, I know how things are going to turn out in the end." I agree with her. Somehow. Maybe it might make life boring because you know how things are going to be like, you don't have the chance to experiment. But I guess i'm jaded. For a little while at least. I want my efforts to count towards something... not wasted because someone don't appreciates or recognise it. I know I will probably take back all these words someday... As of now, lets hope that someday comes. =)
because the quote echos something deep within me...
I just saw the above quote when blog-hopping a while ago. Sets me thinking and in a way, it sure is a great wrap-up quote for this entire week.
It has been a roller-coaster week for me. No not in terms of studies. I had my projects done since last week. More like in terms of my emotions and mental health. Of course certain people would know what i am referring to. How i was so affected and just keep acting like a freaking 90 yr old engine, breaking down coughing dust. Hmm my sleeping patterns were a more accurate indication of that. Insomnia took control of my sleep. urgh. And there was this one night that i couldn't sleep because i could hardly breathe after all those tears. Hmm thankful for those who stayed up with me!
In any case, one episode of my life has just finished production. I shall now proceed to tie up all the loose ends and place that roll of film into the storage room. I now sleep better (LOADS) and feel much happier.
You know what you have done. Somethings will just haunt your memories. Some people will never fade. It pricks at your conscious. I think I gave everything I could. And now I can give no more because I feel that I'm only being taken advantage of and because of the possibility that you don't care for all of that anyway. You know how depressing that is to me.
Anyway, I remember a quote from GG said by Blair that goes along the lines of... "I like watching those movies over and over again because that way, I know how things are going to turn out in the end." I agree with her. Somehow. Maybe it might make life boring because you know how things are going to be like, you don't have the chance to experiment. But I guess i'm jaded. For a little while at least. I want my efforts to count towards something... not wasted because someone don't appreciates or recognise it. I know I will probably take back all these words someday... As of now, lets hope that someday comes. =)
because the quote echos something deep within me...
