I've been scaring myself. Still probably am.
No I'm not suicidal. Just not being myself.
And just when I need people the most, I'm afraid that what I'm doing is only driving them further away from me.
Whatever it is, please stay. Cause I don't know what I want nor what I'm doing, really.
This time, everything's about me.
I'm sorry no one understands. Not even me sometimes.