Saturday, December 13, 2008
Hello hello! Its 2 oclock! Here to say hello to my dreary blog and to you who is reading. HELLO!!
Its the hols and i've been rather tied up. My schedule book looks great and i've been meeting up with people as well as getting rest at home with family. Looks like a great balance to me and for that i'm glad.
One thing that i'm rather upset about is that i won't get to see my darling 501 tml!!!!! After all the months of prior planning, it seems as though tml's gathering would have to be cancelled or postponed due to certain unforseen circumstances. I wonder when will it be where we can have the whole class together again. Somehow as i am typing this, i am picturing all of us sitting around a steamboat. Hmm... must be the association with warmth and coziness. They're really a bunch of people that means much to me. The teachers too. =) Fond memories.
Remembering 501, it also reminds me that i have had great times in mj. Though i was there not exactly by choice and there were some people that were invariently part of mj too that i didn't feel like seeing, i must say that going to mj was a wise choice. It gave me the freedom and room to grow, in more ways than one. Being in a girls' class also taught me more about interacting with girls, in a way that is not conventional. There was much love and affection in 501, its so tangible you would have to lose all ur senses to miss out on it. Talking to mingjie made me realise that i am actually not unhappy that i didn't make it into tj. I donno how to explain that feeling except by putting it in the way i phrase that sentence. If i had gone to tj, i know my life would have turned out very differently. For one, i wouldn't have the chance to mess around in a lab. And also, because of so many ahs people in tj, i probably would not have made as many friends from such diverse backgrounds as i have. In life, there's really much give and take. Many things depend on how we adjust to the surroundings and adapt. How well you adapt will determine your rate of survival... Just something to think about..
On a separate note, i don't think i ever got over the disappointment of not having vj as my jc. To me, that place will always hold lots of special memories. Its a place where i have shed much tears, had the best orientation in my whole life, met the most amazing people, invested so much emotions, and of course... getting to know someone important to me. All within the span of 3 months. Its scary isn't it? That one can have such attachment to a place within such a short amount of time. Its a place of many firsts... I remember for months afterwards, everytime i pass by the building, i will see myself within the compound, seeing what i had once done in various corners of that place, everything dusted with a coat of gray. Sentimental value...It never hurts to look back on your journey and savour the thrills and exhilarations as well as the pain and the tears. Afterall, that's what makes us who we are today. I doubt i would be the same person typing this if not for every single experience i've had thus far. 19 years might seem trival... but is it really?
I've been thinking much lately, in bed. For some reason or another, sleep has been evading me for a while now. i wonder why. But in these times of silent, where i lie and hear the cars pass me by, i think and dream of much. Of the possible (if i work hard) and of the impossible (where nothing is within my control). Among all these, i hold dear memories. Must be the approaching of the new year striking some cord deep within me to look back on the almost-to-be-gone year. Am i the only one?
-i fell in love. i don't think i've un-fell or will unfelled soon.-
Its the hols and i've been rather tied up. My schedule book looks great and i've been meeting up with people as well as getting rest at home with family. Looks like a great balance to me and for that i'm glad.
One thing that i'm rather upset about is that i won't get to see my darling 501 tml!!!!! After all the months of prior planning, it seems as though tml's gathering would have to be cancelled or postponed due to certain unforseen circumstances. I wonder when will it be where we can have the whole class together again. Somehow as i am typing this, i am picturing all of us sitting around a steamboat. Hmm... must be the association with warmth and coziness. They're really a bunch of people that means much to me. The teachers too. =) Fond memories.
Remembering 501, it also reminds me that i have had great times in mj. Though i was there not exactly by choice and there were some people that were invariently part of mj too that i didn't feel like seeing, i must say that going to mj was a wise choice. It gave me the freedom and room to grow, in more ways than one. Being in a girls' class also taught me more about interacting with girls, in a way that is not conventional. There was much love and affection in 501, its so tangible you would have to lose all ur senses to miss out on it. Talking to mingjie made me realise that i am actually not unhappy that i didn't make it into tj. I donno how to explain that feeling except by putting it in the way i phrase that sentence. If i had gone to tj, i know my life would have turned out very differently. For one, i wouldn't have the chance to mess around in a lab. And also, because of so many ahs people in tj, i probably would not have made as many friends from such diverse backgrounds as i have. In life, there's really much give and take. Many things depend on how we adjust to the surroundings and adapt. How well you adapt will determine your rate of survival... Just something to think about..
On a separate note, i don't think i ever got over the disappointment of not having vj as my jc. To me, that place will always hold lots of special memories. Its a place where i have shed much tears, had the best orientation in my whole life, met the most amazing people, invested so much emotions, and of course... getting to know someone important to me. All within the span of 3 months. Its scary isn't it? That one can have such attachment to a place within such a short amount of time. Its a place of many firsts... I remember for months afterwards, everytime i pass by the building, i will see myself within the compound, seeing what i had once done in various corners of that place, everything dusted with a coat of gray. Sentimental value...It never hurts to look back on your journey and savour the thrills and exhilarations as well as the pain and the tears. Afterall, that's what makes us who we are today. I doubt i would be the same person typing this if not for every single experience i've had thus far. 19 years might seem trival... but is it really?
I've been thinking much lately, in bed. For some reason or another, sleep has been evading me for a while now. i wonder why. But in these times of silent, where i lie and hear the cars pass me by, i think and dream of much. Of the possible (if i work hard) and of the impossible (where nothing is within my control). Among all these, i hold dear memories. Must be the approaching of the new year striking some cord deep within me to look back on the almost-to-be-gone year. Am i the only one?
-i fell in love. i don't think i've un-fell or will unfelled soon.-
