the msg that u had sent a long time ago still stings. i can still rmb it. though it has been like wad? 4 months? it isn't that i haven't tried but its just my procrastinating nature i suppose. and of course of other reasons that have been buzzing about in my mind.

today i realised just how old i am. 18. yes. all the cashiers and part timers are all younger than me!! gosh! to think that i thought i was young. apparently in a different work place i would be. but to my seniors i'm still that young mei mei who does not do anything right or have very bad memory or that they are always superior to me. i tell u. it is so irritating. gosh i have my own mind alright and i do know what i'm doing. damn it. don't make me vulgar. its so not me. i hate it. =(

anyway the cashiers are really friendly. =) makes me smile and enjoy my day actually with their ridiculous sticking out of tongue and all. hahahaha. it is so amusing i find myself going back in years and doing all those silly actions back to them. GOSH. haha but it is all in good fun. xp they are even sad that i'm leaving after tml. wad cuteness. hahaha.

and to a certain extent, social segregation does exist no matter how hard we try to gloss over it and declare that we are a "everyone is of equal social status" society. to me the normal route in education is 6 yrs of pri sch then 4 yrs of sec sch then 2 yrs of JC/ 3yrs of poly. so when i am faced with people who have taken the "unconventional" route(to me that is), i am at a loss. "how to continue conversation???" that's wad my mind will be screaming. and usually a lame thing will pop out and i will just make myself so embarrassed. *guilty* so working does open ur eyes up to the world! just take the time to look.

today my nick kept changing. all for good reasons.
"all we ever talk about nowadays is mundane things" that's one.
"why does everyone seem to want to know 1. how old i am 2. how come i'm working 3. do i have a boyfriend" that's another.

bye ppl. work tml and its 1.00 am. i have 8 hrs of slp time left. heh. =)
new yr eve tml. countdown with me?  ¶ 12:21 AM 0 Comments

  it is 1206.
so officially, good morning!!
today is my 2nd last day of work at that same old place.
YAYness. can't imagine how i will survive if i continue this life for months till uni.
I think i will first become skinny with my pants falling OFF my hips, then i will suffer from severe dehydration, then lost of appetite. all consequences of one proper meal a day, hardly any water breaks and limited food within budget. I mean i can hardly live on paragon basement food infinitely and not go broke yeah? go have a look at the type of food sold there. no point working like a dog then spending almost 2 hrs worth of pay on food. its retarded.

sad that i couldn't make if for 4F outing today. haiz. stupid worklife. i would have given anything to go. haiz but then again nvm la... earn more to spend. hahaha. i need to shop anyway.

okie lost the momentum of blogging.
bye at 1231.
short post.  ¶ 12:05 AM 0 Comments

  working life is like shit!!!
my poor hands are so so so suffering!!!
see the number of bruises i have and oh not forgetting paper cuts and dry peeling cuticles.
urghh wad a nightmare.
how i wish for a manicure.
only my nails are behaving for now.
*cries*

oh and makeup somehow improves ur skin u know?
being forced to put basic makeup.
hmph i guess i do look more enhanced with it.
HAHAHA. wad stupidity.

and yes! tml i'll be at cityhall.
i love relieving for RC cause the ppl there are nice.
just that i will miss my cashiers back at paragon.
but i'll see them soon enough.
and no. the cashiers are not GUYS.(nah i din become a lesbian. not worth it. xp)
sadly, the guys who shop at paragon are not good looking.
working there? also quite hopeless.
only diff? one got money, the other one trying to earn it.
hahaha!

reminiscing about pri sch days.
haha such innocence.
my darling pal pam. =)
lets see how long have we been friends?
feels like forever.
since p4.
=)
loves  ¶ 1:08 AM 0 Comments

  its christmas.
=)

the spirit of giving.
and LOVE! <3
aww...

trying to recall what i did last christmas. i can't exactly remember. forgot who i spent it with other than my family. this year i'm not too sure yet.

just 1 or 2 mins. my christmas would have been perfect.  ¶ 2:59 PM 0 Comments

  retail is not my thing.
not the therapy part but the promoting part.
i don have that much patience.
and tolerance.
but i'm learning.
everyday.

oh i wanna rant. is it like such a bother to button up the purse or wallet and place it back nicely just like how u found it to be? are we humans so retarded and have that "don care attitude" because of the mentality that "well the promoters and sales people are there to tidy it up for others, ain't that their job? if not then what's the point of employing them." are we such an inferior species? i am kinda getting fedup at this sort of attitude that i'm face with everyday. it doesn't take that much to button or zip up whatever you have undone. what a horrible habit we all have. the guys are nicer shoppers because they do bother. the females? urgh. even i have to admit feeling a little ashamed at such behavior. and oh wad's with the "customer is king" thing? do we deserve no respect then? we are not machines and our feelings are hurt whenever we are treated as servants. yes we are there to serve you. but is it hard to ask properly? to have patience? to be understanding? to SMILE? its basic courtesy for heaven's sake!! the threat of a complaint? wad's the point? so that you are being revered? wad stupid ideas.

pardon me for saying this but singaporeans are more prone to behaving like bitches. especially those shopping with a budget. service is one thing. treat the sales person with respect and dignity. come on we are fellow human beings after all. wad's with the status of "customer is king". rubbish. kindness is usually repaid with kindness. in the same way, a smile begets a smile. so pls be more considerate to the people serving you. more importantly, how you are treating the people around you.

i love smiles.
i really do.
and of course hugs.
=)

oh and x'mas is really coming.
walking along orchard road, i can't help the compulsion to take pics!
so pretty!!
i shall attempt to upload them all some day.
the walk home after work.
love the lights.

if only you all were around to admire them together with me.
that would be perfect!!
<3

and listening to the same cd everyday has this stuck in my head.
"all i want for christmas is you" (oh yes)
"santa stuck in my chimney"
"all i want for christmas is my two front teeth"
just to name a few.
soon it will all disappear into white noise.

-will santa come this year? i want to ask him for something alive and kicking and impossible to wrap-  ¶ 12:19 AM 0 Comments

  this i have to blog. cause it touched me so.
on wed.
i was working at RC.
till 11.

jian and becky went to visit me.
=)
specially.
so touched!!!!!!

walked to esplanade for becky to take her bus.
me and jian took a cab home.
hahaha thank god i studied for BTT.
double yellow jagged strips means strictly no stopping.
haha if not we would have waited and flagged for taxis in vain.

=)
nice day.  ¶ 12:31 AM 0 Comments

  one moment i'm laughing with my dad.
the next moment i'm holding my hands out for a hug.
then... the tears burst forth.
i think i scared him.
at least he was calm enough to scout around for tissue while i ruin my makeup after a hard day's work.

i guess it is only natural that i reacted that way.
just too many things weighing down on my mind making me so tired.
stressed.
see even after the big As i'm feeling stressed.
just over different things.

work is alright.
had such an awful day ytd.
i guess that contributed to the almost full bottle of swirling thoughts.

we all need outlets for stress relief.
interesting that mine's like that.
and i always go running for ppl to comfort me.
them with or without knowledge that tears are being shed.

there are just some ppl that can make you feel better.
just by being there.  ¶ 12:18 AM 0 Comments

  randomness: my hair grows really fast!

oh yes i found a job.
back to sales promoting.
tiring job that requires you to be on your feet for like at least 8 hours?
though it looks set to be 10 hour shifts this holiday period.

asked some of you to come and pei me.
i'm not kidding.
ytd was my first day.
and due to previous days events, at certain points of time i felt utterly lonely.

shan't say more.
its almost time for me to start preparing for work.
bye  ¶ 11:43 AM 0 Comments

  i'm home!

something tells me that you would probably come and read this entry.
but i blog, not because of that.
only because i want to.

great day today.
nice cool weather and freak rain.
peaceful and pleasant.
the company?
needless to say.

could tell that you were wondering how to tell me those words.
i could sense it. haha!
i could have told you that i know and you can save your breath.
but somehow i think i needed to hear it.

my response...
relieved aren't you?
that it went so easily.
yes i smiled. i understand your words.
but i can't help a part of me feeling not right.
a small part of me taking its last breath. (heh so poetic)
no point making a stupid scene.
haha i knew that would be uncomfortable for you.
though borrowing your shoulders sounded like a great idea. (xp)

i felt alright.
you have so much now on your mind, another is just too much of a bother too.
i guess i also understand how sometimes things just does not turn out the way you want them to.
or that you don't have to be together with the person you love to love them.
all the cliched sayings and yet today they made perfect sense.

i can't help that little prick at your words. (ouch!)
yet what i said then was true.
sometimes such things don't matter.
what's important is that you enjoy each other's company.
nothing rivals that.

well dear it ain't a crush like you said.
its called affection.
and i'll always be your mortal.  ¶ 5:14 PM 0 Comments

  i realised i have been stingy with my time and have not devoted much to this almost decaying blog. haha.

so many things i have not blogged about like.. PROM. my dear friends leaving singapore. oh and ytd's 4f bbq. omg. that should span one whole entire blog page at least and yet i'm just gonna leave with a few sentences because i'm supposed to be doing something else already. urghhh..

soon soon. one day i'll sit and type all. i promise. for memory sake and all.  ¶ 12:02 PM 0 Comments

  photos of mjc prom 2007 on facebook.
will upload them here at a later date.
lazy
hahaha

i had fun
will type more next time. =)  ¶ 10:01 PM 0 Comments

  Just a shocking realisation to the cruelty of guys. Looks really do matter.
To be fair, looks also do matter to girls. Urgh. Superficiality just doesn't sit that well.

I'm lazy to blog.
Tml's prom night.
I really wonder how JC prom would differ from sec sch prom.
Just don't let it disappoint.

Getting my shoes and CAMERA (junyu!!) later.
All the last min work.
guilty guilty.

Photos again soon. i should have time after prom.
I WANT A JOB. i'm so dead broke.

To all my scholar friends!!! DO come back!!! You know i hate saying goodbyes. =(

and i'm gone.  ¶ 11:57 AM 0 Comments