Last night was awful. I so din know that i can just collapse like that. I think i have been putting too much expectations on myself unknowingly such that i'm overstressing myself unnecessarily. The first time in many many years, i ran to my mom. I din know what to do but just sat there beside her. I think she got shocked too because she also din expect me to react that way. Luckily she tried to listen and tried to comfort me. I miss her touch so much. You can really feel the love radiating off from her as she tried to sooth me.

Luckily too that i had u to call. I sent u a msg on impulse cause i was really quite upset. So glad when u tried to cheer me up. With all the funny stupid stories. Nonetheless, i was calmed by your voice. I know that u were awed too cause u never knew what to do when tears are involved. But u tried your best to comfort me. Even though i was breathing like some huge animal cause i had yet to catch my breath, you stayed there listening. No words were said but ur presence was enough. To know that u cared. That's all that matters. I had never spoken on the phone for so so long before. I mean handphone. It was more than an hour but it was worth it. A smile on my face was evident and i slept well after that. Many thanks angel... <3

There's so much more for me to do. I know i can do it. It comforts me when my efforts are being recognised even though effort does not always and surely translate to pretty grades on pieces of paper. I feel that it is worth it. Worth all my slp time just to show you that i am trying. It never seems enough though but now i know for sure that my family and my friends and u are behind me. I have nothing more to worry. It is up to me.

And i'm going for prom. Time to stop all the unhealthy diets!! And stop worrying about pimples. URGH!  ¶ 1:52 PM