First time for ages that i felt like this. Feeling really lousy and bad and uncomfortable and lost. It is not a nice feeling. I hate it. I hate the person all these emotions twinning inside of me is making me seem. I need a calm mind i need solace i need love i need comfort i need understanding and i need you.

First for me. Feeling like that and being unable to express it. Why? I can't seem to answer that question. I don't even feel like blogging but i figured after getting much outta my system i would feel less burdened and therefore be able to stand tall again and face the world. I know i make it sound serious but i feel as though everything is now a facade and all of us are staging a play in which no one knows their lines but the show must go on, making everything seem clockwork and normal. In fact it is one huge mess. I need to brainwash myself... Seriously...

Maybe i should... Spend one day entirely by myself buried in my own thoughts. I might go crazy though. It is killing me. Everything. I feel so oppressed that laughing is not as easy as it was before. I wonder where have i gone. Drowned? No one knows...

They say that by hugging someone u release some sort of hormone that makes u feel loved and cherished. No wonder i love hugs. I need a time out. How about "Have a break-have a kitkat". Could it be stress?

I do not feel like speculating....I'm so exhausted. I hate expectations. I don't want any more burden. I want laughter and surprise. I want love. I want hugs. I want to be myself again. Help me... Pls.

-loves-
You don seem to care at all. Dejected. Thought u were different. Aww i'll just like date my books.  ¶ 11:37 PM