First day of exams...
Note how that sounds and i still have another 2 more days to slug it through. Well that aside. I only started studying when i got back from the trip and that could hardly qualify as productive studying for a suitable amount of time considering the amount of things we have to cover and the depth of everything. Sometimes when i study i really feel this sinking sensation- drowning in the information that i am supposed to absorb. It is so overwhelming! Going in to the exam hall and regergitating everything that u have studied, acting like merlion. Scribble scribble in the exam, try to look smart and fake here and there about the amount of information that u actually know by going around in circles. Hahaz... The "techniques" that we use. The skill of crapping comes vv handy during these times... So now u know...

I wonder how will it be like for the next 2 days but at least i have crossed the hurdle of CHEMISTRY and GEOGRAPHY. 2 major hurdles i should say... I hope i pass. There is no talk about getting good grades because of the dismial state of my "lack of information brain". Well math tml and then econs on the following day. We'll see how.

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So this was going on in my head for a couple of weeks. Laid awake at night even, thinking about it. Have i found the reason i came to MJ? Have i found the right source of joy?

I have no idea wad is this all about but maybe sometimes, u will things to happen in a way and when it really happens, it is a miracle. Wad have i found in MJ? Is my reason for coming here the friendships that i made to compensate those that i had to leave behind? Or have i found a place of belonging here in a group of friends that i could not deny friendship to? Or am i simply here because i had to be here? Reality. There is no point hiding from it because it juz come around the corner somewhere and slap u awake.

A great class... 06S501
A fun cca... Squash

Are those reason enough?

Study buddies: singwei, limian, suhan
How did we get thrown together? Now i wonder... But i don really care cause we rox! Hahaz..

I know that's fate though. Never regreted joining squash. Never regreted dropping out from student council. It was never for me and there is always the probability that i would not be chosen anyway. I'm juz glad i made a choice and stuck to it. Squash has made me happy and it has brought me a great grp of new friends. Hahaz... CCAs are great because u can find like-minded ppl. =) Even meeting them and getting to know them was all so chance. You probably would never know... Had i not, had i not... Had i said no, had i not been persistent... All these would probably had not happened. Never force urself to overachieve. It is a horrible mistake because u are the one that is pushing urself towards breakage point. Coping wif stress is not that simple a thing to do and if u cannot cope, the blame would be place on urself. Why cause urself so much unhappiness? Advice for myself or?...

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Can't wait for exams to be over!! I wanna enjoy the one week break that comes right after it. I don't wanna think about anything except fun Fun and FUN! Eh i wanna go JB leh think my parents would not have much of an issue wif that but argh! Seniors finish exams so much later than us! Common day off... Ask some other time. =) I wanna play squash too... Fitness level is horrible or rather -nil- status at the moment. Played for around an hour that day and got lots of aches the next day!! Pathetic.

I wanna go lots of places and do lots of things!! I wanna go to the beach i wanna go Vhall and find my friends i wanna play pool i wanna meet up wif 4F i wanna go shopping GSS!!! i wanna go to the movies i wanna go walking around singapore i wanna go out wif friends i wanna have lunch/dinner/wadever wif my darlings i wanna juz slack i wanna go enjoy i wanna go eat i wanna go zoo(suhan) i wanna go parkway parade i wanna go hostel i wanna change my guitar strings(someone tune for me!!!) i wanna learn a new song i wanna learn how to play the piano(since 10 thousand yrs ago) i wanna try my hand at cooking i wanna chat wif everyone i wanna blog i wanna go back to uk and enjoy life i wanna go EVERYWHERE and do EVERYTHING. LOL!! If u read all of that i salute u. I look at it i go dizzy. 6 days. Pure enjoyment. Oh ya! I wanna slp and i wanna go collect my contacts! =)

Great! I shan't say more but at least now i'm happier than when i came online. Blogging theraphy. Muahahahaz......

Lucks to all for exams. And to me too. =)  ¶ 6:53 PM