Eeks maths paper today. So screwed. Wow! Stare at the qns donno whether to laugh or cry. Ew! Anyways it is over and tml is a brand new day wif econs to make me feel good/bad? Maybe i shall learn the old way, memorise. Yeah that's the way man.

Can't i juz continue ignoring u? Blahz.. Seems like it is no longer possible but 3 months is considered quite a long time. Alright i shall show recognition the next time, i guess. Shall be a nice gal.

One last paper tml then i'm officially free!!! YAY! Can u beat that!??! Glad i'm not taking chinese. Woots freedom! It seldom taste this sweet. =)  ¶ 5:56 PM 0 Comments

  First day of exams...
Note how that sounds and i still have another 2 more days to slug it through. Well that aside. I only started studying when i got back from the trip and that could hardly qualify as productive studying for a suitable amount of time considering the amount of things we have to cover and the depth of everything. Sometimes when i study i really feel this sinking sensation- drowning in the information that i am supposed to absorb. It is so overwhelming! Going in to the exam hall and regergitating everything that u have studied, acting like merlion. Scribble scribble in the exam, try to look smart and fake here and there about the amount of information that u actually know by going around in circles. Hahaz... The "techniques" that we use. The skill of crapping comes vv handy during these times... So now u know...

I wonder how will it be like for the next 2 days but at least i have crossed the hurdle of CHEMISTRY and GEOGRAPHY. 2 major hurdles i should say... I hope i pass. There is no talk about getting good grades because of the dismial state of my "lack of information brain". Well math tml and then econs on the following day. We'll see how.

-love-

So this was going on in my head for a couple of weeks. Laid awake at night even, thinking about it. Have i found the reason i came to MJ? Have i found the right source of joy?

I have no idea wad is this all about but maybe sometimes, u will things to happen in a way and when it really happens, it is a miracle. Wad have i found in MJ? Is my reason for coming here the friendships that i made to compensate those that i had to leave behind? Or have i found a place of belonging here in a group of friends that i could not deny friendship to? Or am i simply here because i had to be here? Reality. There is no point hiding from it because it juz come around the corner somewhere and slap u awake.

A great class... 06S501
A fun cca... Squash

Are those reason enough?

Study buddies: singwei, limian, suhan
How did we get thrown together? Now i wonder... But i don really care cause we rox! Hahaz..

I know that's fate though. Never regreted joining squash. Never regreted dropping out from student council. It was never for me and there is always the probability that i would not be chosen anyway. I'm juz glad i made a choice and stuck to it. Squash has made me happy and it has brought me a great grp of new friends. Hahaz... CCAs are great because u can find like-minded ppl. =) Even meeting them and getting to know them was all so chance. You probably would never know... Had i not, had i not... Had i said no, had i not been persistent... All these would probably had not happened. Never force urself to overachieve. It is a horrible mistake because u are the one that is pushing urself towards breakage point. Coping wif stress is not that simple a thing to do and if u cannot cope, the blame would be place on urself. Why cause urself so much unhappiness? Advice for myself or?...

-love-

Can't wait for exams to be over!! I wanna enjoy the one week break that comes right after it. I don't wanna think about anything except fun Fun and FUN! Eh i wanna go JB leh think my parents would not have much of an issue wif that but argh! Seniors finish exams so much later than us! Common day off... Ask some other time. =) I wanna play squash too... Fitness level is horrible or rather -nil- status at the moment. Played for around an hour that day and got lots of aches the next day!! Pathetic.

I wanna go lots of places and do lots of things!! I wanna go to the beach i wanna go Vhall and find my friends i wanna play pool i wanna meet up wif 4F i wanna go shopping GSS!!! i wanna go to the movies i wanna go walking around singapore i wanna go out wif friends i wanna have lunch/dinner/wadever wif my darlings i wanna juz slack i wanna go enjoy i wanna go eat i wanna go zoo(suhan) i wanna go parkway parade i wanna go hostel i wanna change my guitar strings(someone tune for me!!!) i wanna learn a new song i wanna learn how to play the piano(since 10 thousand yrs ago) i wanna try my hand at cooking i wanna chat wif everyone i wanna blog i wanna go back to uk and enjoy life i wanna go EVERYWHERE and do EVERYTHING. LOL!! If u read all of that i salute u. I look at it i go dizzy. 6 days. Pure enjoyment. Oh ya! I wanna slp and i wanna go collect my contacts! =)

Great! I shan't say more but at least now i'm happier than when i came online. Blogging theraphy. Muahahahaz......

Lucks to all for exams. And to me too. =)  ¶ 6:53 PM 0 Comments

 

Joyce, you follow your heart when it comes to success

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.

But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

Someone pls tell me wad am i doing here and attempting this quiz when i should be doing last min revision for MYE?! I don't understand myself la.. And i did lesser today at home than any other day!!! I should have juz gone out to study. Coping myself up at home does no good. Booz!  ¶ 6:14 PM 0 Comments

  Where am i now? In school supposedly "studying" but juz here wasting time. Haiz.. Only a few more days to the start of the school term and more importantly EXAMS but... I can't help it that the days are only 24hrs long and i got a whole chunk of stuff to study. Grr.. So lets juz leave it as that and do my best to study hard and get great results. Hmm... FAT HOPE. xp Now i sound pretty pathetic. Blahz. Bye then i have yet to upload my photos so i shall juz leave the blogging about the trip till after mid yrs where i can camp in front of the computer and not feel guilty. Yeah!  ¶ 3:56 PM 0 Comments

  YEAH! I'm back...
Totally loved it in london and slapton ley and bristol and bath and oxford.
Blahz..
How i wished i lived there amongst all those friendly ppl the acres and acres of open pastures
the sea by the side...
Hmm..
On the other hand i am really glad to be home.

I am overwhelmed now by thinking and missing uk so i shall not blog proper about my trip. There's 10 days worth of things to talk about so i think i shall save it and blog when i have all the photos. =)  ¶ 9:18 PM 0 Comments

  Face the change my darling. I know ytd was somewad like a horrid day cause nothing went according to how i thought it would be.. Alrights not everything but well, i guessed we have sort of disappeared into our own world. It is sad...

Yeah i changed lots. It is not noticible when i'm around new friends but when i go out wif my old and close friends do i see the stubtle but undenyable change that i had undergone. Blahz.. U think i like it? For better or worse? Inevitable...

Hey fel.. Don be too sad alrights? I still miss u lots and ytd it was great to see u again and tease u. Hahaz... It was just like the old times yea? Sorrie i was not in a too wonderful mood ytd. Something was on my mind and u should know wad. Stop giving me that "Are u crazy saying that" look!! I know something was on ur mind too and u were miles away frm where we were! Come on i have the sixth sense when it comes to ppl that i care and know about. xp U know wad that means right? THanks for all the help and motivation ytd!! It made me feel less stupid that i was doing all those boxes. Blehz. My fingers still kinda hurt after cutting the board!

Don worry too much about them la. I think it is just a phrase in their lives. Juz let it lie and maybe u all would be blossom friends the next time u meet them? Heehee.. Painting a perfect picture is not a bad thing to be doing at a time like this. It helps motivate u huh?=) Yeah i'm leaving Spore like tml so i'm real glad that i met u before i left. Arent u touched? Don lets procrestinate and go out after my midyrs again alrights? U still owe me a treat u goose! xp Hahaz.. Don think i have forgotten. It is an excuse to go out again though! Hahaz..

-loves-

Wad am i doing alone at home again? I'm getting bored. I wanna see all my friends like now but i think all of them are busy mugging or at camp to bother about me. Blahz... To think that i would not be seeing them for at least 15 days juz makes me sad.. Especially some of them. Integrated in to my life such that it feels weird not seeing them everyday. Maybe i should juz ask someone out huh? It is still early yet it feels like 4 pm to me now. I'm kinda dreading going to UK u noe? At least i'll be bringing my phone there so u rich ppl can msg me if u want. Make my day! okie this is getting super random...

How am i going to settle my lunch??? I'll see how..  ¶ 12:08 PM 0 Comments

  OMG!
I donno wad to do now..
Bad day ytd, confusing day today.
Urgh!

I don't like conflicting feelings!! Yeah that's it. Have i become the middle man? What is the cost of friendship? Would it hurt again?

I shall juz talk this over wif fel tml. She'll listen to wad i have to say. =) I missed that gal lots la. Hahaz.. Fun and loving gal. Said she got lots to tell me. I wonder what but she sounds happy enough so i think it should be juicy and good news. =) I have got lots to tell her too. Msn chatting juz don seem enough...

So tml then. =)  ¶ 6:44 PM 0 Comments

  I'm in sucha bad mood today.
Don really know the reason why.
Just feeling moody and lousy i guess.
Could be cause of a number of reasons.
Grouchy.

Reasons could number..
Lazy to type.
Don want u to know too..

-loves-

I'm caring too much!
That's so me.
But i know that it only leads to disaster!
Haiz...

The more u care and expect
The worse things will be when it failed to live up to expectations.  ¶ 9:58 PM 0 Comments