Sunday, May 21, 2006
Such a dumbass.
Such a freak.
Dimwit!
Urgh!
Yeah i'm talking about me or rather my very evil twin sister that is making me behave like such a monster. I definately do not like this but sometimes u juz don have a choice. She juz takes over my mind and body whenever she is feeling bored. hahaz.. sounds like a spilit personality huh??
That's why i have been behaving weirdly sometimes. I donno how to explain it but some ppl juz rubs me the wrong way. Yicks i sound like a bitch but well, who cares, it is only human to be one. Hahaz.. My ideology. xp
Went back to ahs on thurs. i so miss the place!!! It was where i grew up where i made so many wonderful friends where i learnt so many things unrealted to studies. It brings back both painful memories as well as happy and enjoyable once. It was the place where tears were shed, in happiness and in pain, it was where i fell and crawled back up again. It was HOME. And now i had to leave. Aww.. Going back was not what i imagined it to be. It is different. Ahs has changed for better or worse, i have no comments. I guess it is not really in my place to criticise anything. Who knows what the zoeboon is up to? Half of the teachers that i knew had left the school. Whether volunteerily or cause of some other reasons, i'll never know. The school has a different atmosphere to it. Not the same as before. It feels ridgit. It feels suffocating and most of all, it is becoming a conformist school. Everything is uniformed, somewhat like a military school. It made me think of not going back as often as i have because of the atmosphere. It is lost. I'm sad...I want the ahs that i have known... The only place that seemed to be left untouched is the hostel. yup.
Sometimes i wish i'm more of myself. Wish that i'm not such a moody person. I need to become more neutral. Yeah! If not ppl will really start thinking that i am sick in the head. Blahz. Most of the time i'm feeling like this because i'm vv easily influenced by other people's feelings and emotions. I tend to sulk when the other person is not in a good mood. Lol! Interesting huh? And i tend to go high when everybody's happy!!! =)
Omg!! I can't believe i wrote all of that! I probably should get my head examined!
Such a freak.
Dimwit!
Urgh!
Yeah i'm talking about me or rather my very evil twin sister that is making me behave like such a monster. I definately do not like this but sometimes u juz don have a choice. She juz takes over my mind and body whenever she is feeling bored. hahaz.. sounds like a spilit personality huh??
That's why i have been behaving weirdly sometimes. I donno how to explain it but some ppl juz rubs me the wrong way. Yicks i sound like a bitch but well, who cares, it is only human to be one. Hahaz.. My ideology. xp
Went back to ahs on thurs. i so miss the place!!! It was where i grew up where i made so many wonderful friends where i learnt so many things unrealted to studies. It brings back both painful memories as well as happy and enjoyable once. It was the place where tears were shed, in happiness and in pain, it was where i fell and crawled back up again. It was HOME. And now i had to leave. Aww.. Going back was not what i imagined it to be. It is different. Ahs has changed for better or worse, i have no comments. I guess it is not really in my place to criticise anything. Who knows what the zoeboon is up to? Half of the teachers that i knew had left the school. Whether volunteerily or cause of some other reasons, i'll never know. The school has a different atmosphere to it. Not the same as before. It feels ridgit. It feels suffocating and most of all, it is becoming a conformist school. Everything is uniformed, somewhat like a military school. It made me think of not going back as often as i have because of the atmosphere. It is lost. I'm sad...I want the ahs that i have known... The only place that seemed to be left untouched is the hostel. yup.
Sometimes i wish i'm more of myself. Wish that i'm not such a moody person. I need to become more neutral. Yeah! If not ppl will really start thinking that i am sick in the head. Blahz. Most of the time i'm feeling like this because i'm vv easily influenced by other people's feelings and emotions. I tend to sulk when the other person is not in a good mood. Lol! Interesting huh? And i tend to go high when everybody's happy!!! =)
Omg!! I can't believe i wrote all of that! I probably should get my head examined!
