Thursday, December 08, 2005
Why does this have to happen to me? Wad wrong did i do to make u hate me so much to do such hurtful things to me? I don deserve them do i?
Thought about all these when i found out the horrible and painful truth today...
Trust, Friendship... Now i wonder wad they mean to u or whether these words carry any meaning at all. Wad is it that prompted u to say those things behind my back? Wad have i done to u? Or are these qns even relavant now?!?
I admit that i'm hurt... Never thought that u were capable of doing such things...
It's my life, my friends but u managed to run my life for me, made choices of friends for me without my knowledge. i wonder how ppl think of me already, wonder wad u said about me behind my back. No wonder... I din understand it then...but now, it is all crystal clear. U had a hand in it all yea? Managed to ruin my otherwise perfect life, managed to make ppl have a bad impression of me... Wow! Isn't that nobel of u? Don u think u are wonderful?!? Made u feel real proud of urself yea to see that all ur efforts are bearing fruits? I think that is real disguisting of u... Who are u realli? A friend? To whom? I doubt u care about anione except urself...
I don need u no more, I don wan to be cheated for the rest of my life. Friends, i can make them by myself I get along wif ppl well enough... But it is all too late now huh? Who am i now? Someone that has been painted by an artist that is colour blind and loves the colour red and black? I think that is how i am being painted, under ur careful and deliberate hands, sly. I trust too easily, I forgave and now? I regret... I lost so many a potential friends because of ur wonderful mouth...
Now i noe... Noe why they were cool in accepting me... I don blame u cause that would only make me a bigger fool then when i forgave and believed u. I could only blame myself for being so naive and stupid. U were never a friend. A friend does not talk bad about their friends behind their back, already on that count, u are not a friend. Was i wearing rose coloured glasses? Now i muz take them down and see the real u, and i do not like wad i see at all! The worst word to describe u would be "slut" and maybe even that is too kind. I don wish to mince my words, not animore, not after that rude awakening that brought me back to reality...
I have to look around me once more and find my true friends and that includes guys...
Have u been saying bad things about me being wif guys too??!?
All i can say and will say is, Friends are mine to choose so who gives a damn about wad u think?!? If i click wif them wad is there to stop me frm being close friends wif anibody? Certainly not u, u do not have control of my life!! I handle the steering wheel and it is up to me who i choose to be wif. They are so much better to me then u aniway, I don loose out at all...
If u think i'm bitching, so be it. I'm a gal after all and i have my rights to say anithing that i want that's in my rights.
Thought about all these when i found out the horrible and painful truth today...
Trust, Friendship... Now i wonder wad they mean to u or whether these words carry any meaning at all. Wad is it that prompted u to say those things behind my back? Wad have i done to u? Or are these qns even relavant now?!?
I admit that i'm hurt... Never thought that u were capable of doing such things...
It's my life, my friends but u managed to run my life for me, made choices of friends for me without my knowledge. i wonder how ppl think of me already, wonder wad u said about me behind my back. No wonder... I din understand it then...but now, it is all crystal clear. U had a hand in it all yea? Managed to ruin my otherwise perfect life, managed to make ppl have a bad impression of me... Wow! Isn't that nobel of u? Don u think u are wonderful?!? Made u feel real proud of urself yea to see that all ur efforts are bearing fruits? I think that is real disguisting of u... Who are u realli? A friend? To whom? I doubt u care about anione except urself...
I don need u no more, I don wan to be cheated for the rest of my life. Friends, i can make them by myself I get along wif ppl well enough... But it is all too late now huh? Who am i now? Someone that has been painted by an artist that is colour blind and loves the colour red and black? I think that is how i am being painted, under ur careful and deliberate hands, sly. I trust too easily, I forgave and now? I regret... I lost so many a potential friends because of ur wonderful mouth...
Now i noe... Noe why they were cool in accepting me... I don blame u cause that would only make me a bigger fool then when i forgave and believed u. I could only blame myself for being so naive and stupid. U were never a friend. A friend does not talk bad about their friends behind their back, already on that count, u are not a friend. Was i wearing rose coloured glasses? Now i muz take them down and see the real u, and i do not like wad i see at all! The worst word to describe u would be "slut" and maybe even that is too kind. I don wish to mince my words, not animore, not after that rude awakening that brought me back to reality...
I have to look around me once more and find my true friends and that includes guys...
Have u been saying bad things about me being wif guys too??!?
All i can say and will say is, Friends are mine to choose so who gives a damn about wad u think?!? If i click wif them wad is there to stop me frm being close friends wif anibody? Certainly not u, u do not have control of my life!! I handle the steering wheel and it is up to me who i choose to be wif. They are so much better to me then u aniway, I don loose out at all...
If u think i'm bitching, so be it. I'm a gal after all and i have my rights to say anithing that i want that's in my rights.
