Friday, August 05, 2005
Came here to blog cause i'm all confused, mad, irritated and pissed off. Not a good time to me. I thought it would be better if i came here and typed. Releasing all that is bottled up inside me.
It is that kind of time again, the time where i go on overdrive and my nerves go on edge. I noe i don seem to be but i feel neither here nor there. wad's happening?? I can never understand it. Maybe it is because i hold many unanswered questions that nobody can answer. I totalli dispise such feeling, a feeling that u are not sure of urself animore.
Came close to shedding tears over small small stuff. I feel my eyes dampen then all of my emotions in turmoil. Haiz... Wad's wrong?? (Thanks bell and jo. Thanks for asking after me. It is nice to noe that u will stand by me always... I'll be here for u too!) And that's the million dollar question. Prob is i donno!!! Argh! I blame myself!!
I think some people are just in a hurry to come to a conclusion of their own, usualli a wrong one.(duh... hasty solutions are not the best ones i admit) and then they would do stuffs based on that. No no. I do not like the way u treat me. U think u are demure? U are far from that. And i never did like the way ur eyes wonder when u speak and when u laugh at things that are not funnie or u juz pretending. I mean, sometimes u need not force urself. It is not that hard to let things go as it is without ur conscious interfering and telling u "No! I must do this and this so that i can..." why force urself?? Be urself. Oh and ya... juz stop interfering and doing things that are not ur prob.
Okie... Nothing about that animore. not in the mood. I shall juz crawl into that corner of my space and nurse my wounds, wounds that u made in me... No! I'm strong enough to bear the pain and after a while i should be able to pretend that nothing has ever happened and i can smile and joke again.. Sure i can do that.It is not impossible. Hard yes but anithing is better then wad i'm feeling now. Get over it!
I've fallen hard. It has been a long time and it hurts me that we never tok animore not even a "hello". Is it realli gone? That friendship that we once had? I feel vv hurt... Haiz.. It always hurts when u lose friends but even more so when u have not a single idea why the friendship was servered. And the worse thing is... I think i'll never be given an answer....
"Life is indian... Never fair"
It is that kind of time again, the time where i go on overdrive and my nerves go on edge. I noe i don seem to be but i feel neither here nor there. wad's happening?? I can never understand it. Maybe it is because i hold many unanswered questions that nobody can answer. I totalli dispise such feeling, a feeling that u are not sure of urself animore.
Came close to shedding tears over small small stuff. I feel my eyes dampen then all of my emotions in turmoil. Haiz... Wad's wrong?? (Thanks bell and jo. Thanks for asking after me. It is nice to noe that u will stand by me always... I'll be here for u too!) And that's the million dollar question. Prob is i donno!!! Argh! I blame myself!!
I think some people are just in a hurry to come to a conclusion of their own, usualli a wrong one.(duh... hasty solutions are not the best ones i admit) and then they would do stuffs based on that. No no. I do not like the way u treat me. U think u are demure? U are far from that. And i never did like the way ur eyes wonder when u speak and when u laugh at things that are not funnie or u juz pretending. I mean, sometimes u need not force urself. It is not that hard to let things go as it is without ur conscious interfering and telling u "No! I must do this and this so that i can..." why force urself?? Be urself. Oh and ya... juz stop interfering and doing things that are not ur prob.
Okie... Nothing about that animore. not in the mood. I shall juz crawl into that corner of my space and nurse my wounds, wounds that u made in me... No! I'm strong enough to bear the pain and after a while i should be able to pretend that nothing has ever happened and i can smile and joke again.. Sure i can do that.It is not impossible. Hard yes but anithing is better then wad i'm feeling now. Get over it!
I've fallen hard. It has been a long time and it hurts me that we never tok animore not even a "hello". Is it realli gone? That friendship that we once had? I feel vv hurt... Haiz.. It always hurts when u lose friends but even more so when u have not a single idea why the friendship was servered. And the worse thing is... I think i'll never be given an answer....
"Life is indian... Never fair"
